- Coffee. Slept a whopping 10 hours. Feel really rested for the first time in a very long time. Just in time for all the business coming up. Free today, work 3 days after and also have 2 dinners to attend and cook something for, one with my real family and the other with my adopted one. Bring it on! Overeating is something to avoid but that probably will happen anyway as at work there will be a lot of food too. . I’m ready for my first Christmas and new year sober and clean though. With all your help. Thanks so much! Have a good week all. Clean and sober love from Amsterdam where I was up just in time to see the sun appear. And vanish in the clouds again but that’s OK.
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Day 47.
I can feel the anxiousness in the air. People are driving real crazy and I live really close to a mall so the traffic by where I live is insanity. The holidays seem to bring out the worst in people sometimes, it’s quite sad. I don’t get it. People are rude and not very compassionate around this time of year.
I popped in my local bar yesterday to say hi to some friends that called me. I couldn’t believe how drunk all the regulars were. Two were falling off the bar stools and everyone seemed so incredibly sloppy. I’m not judging them, but I can tell people really amp up their drinking when the holidays are here and they don’t have to work. It was as if I was in a time machine and went back to last year around the same time and the same place and was looking in a mirror. Some friends had some little gifts for me and that was nice. I brought chocolates to my friends and the bartenders there. I was there about 20 min and was offered drinks by some people that don’t know I’m sober. I said “sure, just have to use the bathroom.” I walked away to the other side of the bar and by the time I walked past them they had already forgotten they offered me a drink.
The weird thing about this whole thing was here I was in the same place I had been to hundreds of times and gotten drunk and yet I had no temptation. I was actually feeling for everyone that was so drunk. They had so much sadness in their eyes. I just kept thinking of how bad everyone would feel the next day. All that laughing and storytelling and taking shot after shot may seem like so much fun at the moment but for me it only lead to dreadful mornings and regrettable moments. Since I’ve been offered to drink lately by so many people in so many places the thought of feeling sick from hangovers is really keeping my head in the game.
Looking forward to a Sober Christmas! Hope everyone has an amazing day today! 
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Day 5 sober. Sick in bed… please pray for a friend of mine, he is suffering a lot because his daughter abandoned home 4 days ago. She is a vulnerable adult and maybe drugs are are involved. Thank you
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Good morning, checking in at another day sober. I’ve decided to stay home on Christmas Eve alone this year. That is when the big festivities in my family happen. Usually my favorite day of the entire year. However, this year I will not have my kids for the first time ever, and I’m going through a divorce. My sister is giving me shit about it, and I don’t care. She does not have a single empathetic bone in her body. I remember one year, at thanksgiving and a day after one of my many miscarriages, I had the nerve to be quiet/sad. She told me to go home because she didn’t need me around to bring everyone down. I was just hanging with my husband minding our business, we were slightly devastated. Sorry. Ugh.
She seems to enjoy when I’m down and I have no idea why. She goes way overboard rubbing her good fortune in my face when things appear down for me. Probably because I don’t buy into her perfect life bullshit. She’s loaded, ok? Money can’t buy happiness, I’m proof. Next, great husband, I love this guy to death, but she’s always having affairs and long term ones too, so next. She sits around and literally puts me down, talks over me, and brags about herself all night. Guess who’s not in the mood for that shit? Me! I have a lot at work to do switching CRMs. Much happier to do that. I am very happy with who I am as a human, and how I spend my time empowering others. Probably because I grew up without it. Don’t know, don’t care about the why, I just care that I can rest easy at night knowing I’m a decent human being.
Now, Christmas Day I’ll be going out to dinner with my parents and my late uncle’s super amazing wife, and I’m truly looking forward to that. That will be time full of smiles and laughter 
Happy sober Monday people and stay strong this week. I know it’s going to be quite challenging for a lot of us 
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Day 22, woke up tired and puffy. Have to work today and wrap gifts tonight.
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3M / Today marks my 3 months. Never in 1 million years did I ever think I can go this long without drinking and drugging. I’m going to go into this new Decade Sober. Now my sites are fixed on Half a Year and I plan to work al of those days. I have it off until January 6th. I’m taking advantage of these 2 weeks by fixing up my car even more. My job offered me a generous position, I have a gal by my side and my family is taken care of. I cannot ask for anything else. Thank you, God. Thank you for allowing me to recognize this on my own Free Will. Have a good day everyone, Love you all!
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Day 15 here. Nothing i should be proud of but Im happy for it. Sleeping a lot and resting during holidays. However yesterday night, while in bed to sleep, i was thinking about the drug again. At least it was just for a few minutes.
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Day 3 here. Filled with so much anxiety that I want to puke or cry or perhaps both. Off to take the dog for a walk and see if I can sort it out.
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Day 437. Rolling into my second sober Christmas with ease. Holidays are not easy for me and I am not a festive person, but this year I feel neutral rather than awful. For me, that is huge progress.
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Definitely, i use my time off to recharge my batteries and stay away from the usual stress 
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Ohh, there was a thread about this. It’s neat!
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Day 514. A little anxious today. A glimpse of possible Christmas futures, seeing my potential future apartment and job again.
What will be has yet to be. I only ever have today.
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I am 700 days sober today and so grateful!! 
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Day 58, about to go bang the iron around for awhile. Lots of impressive numbers on here. Congratulations to everyone for fighting the fight.
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4th day clean and still going 
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Checking in. I attended a 7am meeting. I’m really committing to a meeting/meditation everyday, and to putting what I’m learning into action in my daily life. Just the hope that it brings me right now, that I actually have a path out of my addiction, has me on a bit of a “pink cloud”. I know not every day will feel like this, but for today, I’ll take it.
Have a great day everyone.
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Day 29. Smoke and drink free. When I take a moment to sit and think about how far I have came in these last 4 weeks and the situations I’ve been “tested” in especially at this time of year I just think how much better life is for me without drinking and smoking. Still 1 day at a time (but I have got my 1 month chip ready and I shall be swapping that for my 24 hour one when my month is up). 
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Thinking back about last year in 3 pictures and the relapse after the scnd one i now suddenly am really proud at myself and where im @ right now. Pics are a bit explicit of you dont like after surgery posts but it might inspire others who also had a rough year, operations, losses etc … of you can think it… you can do it
11 months ago
6 months ago…
Relapsed …
And yet almost on 90 days without drugs.
Did buy wine to times but only with good company finishing most…
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Ptss still bitching me a lot but im fine indeed and really starting to believe this time things are going to the good side. Reminissing a lot about mistakes in the past didnt really help during rehab and now im just being… living… the journey is only to the “here” and “now” , every choice i make i ask… does it make me, the world and whats around me better, more happy or healthy and takin it step bij (12) step 
you have a great and good christmas with a lot of love, i’ll send it you wat anyhow… also @Eke @Mno @SoberWalker @Jimieg @ThajokerNL @anon79808082 @crystalclear @Fargesia_murielae @Neighbrofthebeast668 and everyone i spoke on the forum !!! Go Go gadget christmass and be well
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