Day 420 and checking in , good morning you lovely lot I hope you all had a fantastic xmas,for me it’s been a strange one , the lack of festivity and a lot of stress kinda desensitized the last 2 days for me which I do feel gutted about ,but stuff like this happens , sometimes we are challenged in so many different ways and we just have to fight through …take care people and remember 1 day at a time 
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Day 12. Yesterday I had a couple of moments that I thought about contacting someone and getting my DOC (prescription pills) but I fought through it by doing a craft with my daughter and then the next moment of weakness I took a walk. It worked, I honestly usually don’t bother fighting through a craving, I just go ahead and give in, but not this time. I’ve come so far, almost 2 whole weeks. I feel stronger each time I try this sobriety thing. Have a fantastic sober Friday everyone
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- I survived Christmas, also yesterday’s Tweede Kerstdag (second day of Christmas) we observe over here. Spent that having dinner with my sister, her sons and an old friend of mine. It was much better than the fiasco the night before. Some old tensions from our sibling past did come up. It’s part of Christmas I suppose. The food was good, the company too and now it’s all over. I can move forward again. I’m tired but I’m sober and clean. @Hidden @SoberWalker @Fargesia_murielae @siand @ThajokerNL @Hailstrom @AMtoday @crystalclear Thanks so much for all your support and feedback yesterday. It helped. A lot. Onward we go. One day at a time. Have a good day everybody! Clean and sober love from Amsterdam where the semolina pudding was especially good last night.
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So happy to read this, was rooting for you bud!
I had the exact same BS last night at my mom’s.
She didn’t respect my boundaries on me putting my son straight when he was acting like his mum 
. Then mom went “I can’t do nothing right” I made a comment Well its just that F-ing Christmas right. And then my sis got up. I will leave then blah blah. It had zero to do with her…
People get wound up over Christmas.
Next year I decided I spent both days with friends and skip family all together. Maybe will do a sober Christmas at my place with some dear fellows.
Now up to the 31st and then we can knock 2020 out the park 
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So glad you hear hear you made it through all of that. You’ve had a few eventful days. Glad to hear you’ve came through it sober and sane, well as sane as any of us insane addicts can be! Wishing you some smoother sailing days in the future! That pudding looks so good!
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94.53 Days
I came down with the funk yesterday and finally gave in at took something to bring my fever down as it was approaching 102, feeling a bit worse today 
I’m on a very tight deadline at work, so I can’t even stay home and take care of myself. My boss is such a tyrant (me 
).
I went on my date and was sober for it. It was easy, but I had vivid images of me drinking and had myself convinced that THIS time I’m in a better place and I’ll be able to control it
I snapped out of it and glad I did my date sober. As expected, I think he’s even shorter than he said. He’s all around a very small person. Like tiny. But I really, really enjoyed his company. We are going out again on Saturday to dinner and a movie. I would like to give him a chance. But I’m nervous the attraction won’t happen. Sigh. Time.
Happy sober Friday lovely people.
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Life’s a bitch, MY bitch. Boss of my life checking in on day 29!
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Day 20. Made it through the holidays 
I knew it would be a struggle after losing both my parents, and especially losing my dad so recently, the temptation to numb was strong. My brother is visiting from away; he lived with dad and is having a very hard time with grief on top of pre-existing mental health issues. It’s a tad stressful watching him struggle…So while it’s tempting to numb my anxiety, (and to cope with a MIL visit ) it won’t do me any good to have a drink. Thanks for keeping me on track 
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@SoberWalker thank you so much for the candle. This simple gesture means so much to me. Claudia you are such a loving person and so caring.
Day 10 sober here. I am trying to be more present with my family. How selfish I am!!!
The daughter of my friend is in home but really absent. I believe in the ways that Providence can open
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Checking in with double digits. Got up for a 5am meeting. I went to a meeting last night as well. I shared and wasn’t trembling after I spoke, so that’s a positive. I’m hoping I get more and more comfortable with connecting to people, sharing, and becoming a part of the recovery community. I tend to isolate and keep to myself a lot. I know I need connection and support from others to stay sober, it just goes against my self preservation instincts sometimes. But I have to get uncomfortable if things are going to change, right?
It’s been nice having a couple days to celebrate and relax, but I need to get on the job search starting today. It’s starting to weigh on me, not having a job.
Have a great day everyone and thanks to all of you for being here. 
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@Salty praying for you!!! Love and hugs from Spain!!! 
Christmas time is hard but at the same time very beautiful
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99 Days!
Got through the Christmas holidays! I made sugar free gluten free mini cheesecakes as our holiday treat. I planned my meals and tracked my foods. And kept in touch with my sponsor and read my literature.
Felt a bit sad on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, but was able to turn it around by talking about it. The holidays bring up mixed emotions in lots of people. I was fortunate to have a calm holiday with my husband, our dogs, and a mostly drama-free visit with my parents.
Grateful for recovery & Higher Power!
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Time…
That’s the first thought that came to my mind when I read this, Beth.
Knowing that you just recently ended an unhealthy marriage, why not take a little more time to focus on you, your business, your life, your children, and truly loving yourself? This would be a great opportunity to do that. What’s the rush in bringing another man into your life?
Whether you choose to believe it or not, you’ll be able to find a man to love you at ANY phase of your life. I’m questioning whether this timing is right for you. I’m saying this as a friend.
Anyways, congratulations on making almost triple digits. That’s great!
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99 Days. Still feeling exhausted. Working right after the holiday is just rough. Been at work for 2 hours and it’s just dragging. TGIF!
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Yes it is and I can’t believe I’ve made it this far.
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Almost 100 days. Great job!!!
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Morning check-in.
Long day today. Last day in Manhattan before flying out late tonight.
Stay sober everyone!!
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Thanks @GVLNative. I see you’ve been in NYC. I’m only about 50 minutes from there in NJ. The weather is unusually warm so enjoy it and have a safe flight home.
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Day 26, doctor visit to go over some routine bloodwork. Treating myself to Starbucks on my way to work. It was nice getting out early and not dealing with my MIL. 
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