Thanks matey! We gotta start and look after us more. I strongly believe the fact that I was just rolling with what other people want was one of the reasons I drank. There is lots and lots of other reasons as well but this was definitely a trigger. Not anymore lol 
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Checking in quick, I have a lot of reading to catch up on. I think I have a flu or whatever funk. High fever, coughing achy, head pounding 
Whatever. Found some cold/flu sleepy meds in the cabinet that actually werenāt expired. Those are helping especially with the fever. I let it get to just about 103 before taking because the fever does the real fighting. Iām almost done with my software conversion so Iāll be able to finish by Monday. End of day Monday is my cut off time. Working a full day yesterday with all this was insane. But gotta do what you gotta do. Iām sleeping this whole weekend. Well will try to, sleep isnāt exactly my thing but I really need it. So sleepy meds will hopefully help. 
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Day 108. Woke up too early for a Saturday! Iāve really enjoyed my time off from work this week. Itās been fantastic getting to spend time with my family and had coffee with my best friend. I never appreciated fully the freedom I had when I wasnāt working full time. Now that itās gone Iād love to have it all back. 
Anyway. Still sober. Think the med adjustment my psychiatrist made is really helping my depression so thatās good. Appreciate @anon30771928 and @keiti for speaking truth to me about self love. 
Thinking of you today @SoberWalker
Take care of yourself @Girlinterrupted donāt want to mess around with that flu!
@anon79808082 thanks for the beach picture! Hope your work day goes quickly!
@Blondie1x way to go putting those boundaries in place! Sorry your MIL & her daughters leave you out of their plans. That would hurt my feelings too. Itās their character flaw thatās showing here. Most likely not anything āwrongā with you.
@Mno hope things look up soon for you. Hugs from Texas. 
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Welcome @Soraiah, so glad youāre here. Yeah, the beginning can be so difficult and incredibly sad. It does get better with time. Sobriety tends to makes us feel better all on its own, but some of the deeper stuff takes some time and effort. Lots of great people here to help you through. Congrats on your sobriety! Youāre off to a great start 
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Good for you!! Boom! Itās such an empowering feeling! I did this myself on Christmas Eve and so proud of myself. You really have to do whatās important for you and whatās going to make you better in the long run.
Silly question, please excuse my states living ignorance lol, whatās a ādoā?
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Ha! Sorryā¦itās the English word for party. When somebody has āa doā itās a get together 
xx
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Thanks, I canāt take all the credit, itās you guys here, more than anything else, and your shares that gives me the strength.
Blessings and sobriety yāall!
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MIL flies home today. She arrived sick and goes home sick.
My temperature this morning: 102.2 F 
Edit: Update 10 hrs later ā¦ husband is now sick too. But obviously more sick 
He doesnāt seem to like the āIāll look after me, and you look after youā approach.
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Congrats 
on 30 days sober. Keep on keeping on.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Take care of yourself lady. Rest up as much as you can now that MIL is gone. You made it through the visit!! Well done. 
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Aw @Jane.c hate to see that youāre still on the struggle bus. Anything I/we can do to help? Sending you a hug and will be thinking good thoughts for you.
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Day 3, just chillin at home with gf
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Days. Yay for me! I slept in today until 9am and it felt great. I was feeling so exhausted the past couple of days at work and needed it very badly. It was making me very irritable and angry. HALT was staring me in the face and i had to kick it in the ass. Feeling much better now.
Editā¦Forgot to congratulate my sober twin.
Congrats @Recovering_Addict! We made it to 100 and I look forward to another 100 days with you. 
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Iāve been waiting for this post to celebrate with you!! Yay!! So proud of you for making this far. Youāve fought for it and succeeded!! Glad you got some much needed rest. That makes such a difference! Have a fantastic sober day. 
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@Girlinterrupted coming to terms with marriage being dunzo. Countless efforts to revive, comments made by STBX made me realize it is really not repairable or Iām not going to wait around for another 3 years for her to āfigure herself outā only to be told, ānopeā¦not gonna happenā. Itās sad but I read something on reddit last night, āLove does not equal compatibility.ā I do love the woman, we are just not wired the same. If any of this makes senseā¦
Appreciate you checking in! Hope Saturday goes well for you.
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Thank you! 
Iām checking in at day 25.
Yes, the desire is there to get my fix. Maybe it will always be. So far, Iām saying āNoā to the first thought or look today. weāll see how that goes. In that area, not so good lately. Iāve been struggling to maintain custody of my eyes and mind over the past several days. But today is a new day, and I havenāt used porn or MB. So Iāll take it.
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Day 446 sober from alcohol. Are there any others trying to quit cigs starting from 1st of January? Or recent quitters?
Edit or please recommend a thread to join
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