I was wondering If there ist anyone out there with general obsessive compulsive behaviour. Towards things, situations, people, that give you the extra dopamine kick. Im on my day 57 of sobriety and figuring out, that i get addicted to all sorts of impulses- alcohol, cigarettes, work, cleaning, object of limerence, obsessive thoughts, binging, diets, healthy cooking, the list is long. I get those phases, where I binge everything I do 
I do Most of the things in an overdone matter. I get pretty successfull in most of the areas, but it drains me to core. Most people out there think im so füll of energy, commited, yet dont know that its all just for that kick, just to ease the spirit.
I meditate lots to ease the thoughts and spirit, practice conciousness, try more nature. Try to focus that its my addicticted personaly pushing me towards always doing more and more
Congrats on 57 days!
I tend to get laser focused, maybe some might say obsessed with things like health, food, cleaning, music, coding, projects, hobbies etc. I tend to put all of my effort and energy into these things but it’s never long lived, maybe a few months at the most, then I lose interest and move on to the next thing. Some have said it might undiagnosed ADHD or something similar.
Right now my focus is on my weight and overall health, not a bad thing, as long as I can find balance with the rest of day to day life.
How long do your focus/obsessions last?
I have this intensity in my thoughts and actions too. It may be ocd tendencies, it could be my bipolar diagnosis, or it could just be addict thinking. Im a big all or nothing, 100% or bust. Im struggling to find somemore balance in sobriety
Me too. I do a lot of this 100% or 0% type of behaviour. At times it is brilliant but it is always exhausting and sometimes frustrating.
In my personal case it is related to my ADHD (I was diagnosed 3 years ago), and my father has similar thinking and behaviour.
It aggravates and is aggravated by my addiction behaviours. The more I can do to learn to live healthy and sober, the more I will function (relatively) more constructively.
I am practicing grace with myself. I used to be very critical with myself about this but that self-critical thinking has mellowed as I’ve continued on my recovery journey.
Yep, this describes me exactly. Also like @Matt said, I only have a zero or 100 setting. No in between. I can’t really do anything in moderation. If I do something, I feel like I have to be the best at it or give it 100% of my attention.
Like everyone has said, it does get very draining.