(constant relapses)


#1

I have learned that there isnt always “one last drink” drink. that one last one plays on repeat in my head and totally leaned me more toward bing drinking.

something else I have trouble with is staying consistently sober. its almost like I think it takes someone a lot stronger then me and that sobriety is a amazing art that has to be masterd and only a handful of people can actually grasp the simple concept.

is it really that difficult to understand. at the moment I say no but ive been there a lot…

AA has helped a lot. at first it was a everyday battle. now I might drink a few times a week. I plan on going back again.

(do you guys think waiting a month to collect my one month coin be4 I go back to AA. I mean if I think I can stay sober a month and will achieve it, why not go for it.)

anyone relate or have experience with this thought process? ?


#2

If I can get sober then anyone can do it. Rather than backing off AA I suggest doing more. Seems like you are making progress. Keep going and listening. Get a sponsor, work the steps, your life will get better.


#3

I believe you. I was actually invited a few weeks ago by another friend. I just hate that shame of collecting another 1 day coin (at the moment its over 24 hours sober)


#4

But there is always a first drink. That’s the one you have to say “no” to. If you say “no” to the first drink, there can never be a second or third, or seventh. Say “no” to the first drink, and you win, 100% of the time.


#5

No one says you have to chip again because you got yours wet. I didn’t my last dry run, which had lasted 600+ days and probably about my 75th attempt. Just don’t get the 30 day chip till you earned it.


#6

very helpful

thank you so much


#7

It is a program of suggestions. The best of which is to keep coming back. Chips are not mentioned in the Big Book. They are just custom, not mandatory at all.


#8

It’s been said, but definitely don’t hold off on meetings because of a chip. Get on in there and just skip the chip. It works if you work it. :v:


#9

I had to wait 32 years before i got one ,dont bother about chips, soberiety is your priority so go to a meeting get a sponsor and get on the program wish you well


#10

Guy in my home group always talks about his 24 hour coin collection. He has 42. He is also gratefully 21 years sober now.

He’s a big fan of saying “dont join the 1 won’t hurt club”

Keep trudging.