I have learned that there isnt always “one last drink” drink. that one last one plays on repeat in my head and totally leaned me more toward bing drinking.
something else I have trouble with is staying consistently sober. its almost like I think it takes someone a lot stronger then me and that sobriety is a amazing art that has to be masterd and only a handful of people can actually grasp the simple concept.
is it really that difficult to understand. at the moment I say no but ive been there a lot…
AA has helped a lot. at first it was a everyday battle. now I might drink a few times a week. I plan on going back again.
(do you guys think waiting a month to collect my one month coin be4 I go back to AA. I mean if I think I can stay sober a month and will achieve it, why not go for it.)
anyone relate or have experience with this thought process? ?