Hey everyone! I’m new here. Stumbled upon this app after one of my good recovery friends told me about it.
I currently relapsed last year around Thanksgiving of '19. This run was awful. I couldn’t stop. I almost had 1 whole year clean and then i got triggered. Having so much money from being successful and sober, having a great job, I thought…hmmm. One time won’t hurt me right?? Just to feel that release again. Relax and drift away from reality. Wrong. That’s all it took to make me a monster again. It’s amazing how that one time can take everything away from you. I lost all the trust I built up in everyone. I took from innocent people and hurt them by doing so. People who didn’t deserve that.
Here i am now. Counting down to my big 90 days!
At first I was so ashamed that I was in this spot AGAIN. Went to rehab again for the 10th time, depressed and trying to think how to stop myself from thinking… All i wanna do is pick up. But I didn’t. I did my 2 weeks in detox, was released and now I’m going to meetings. Connecting with other sober people. Going to commitments and speaking to other addicts about my life. Currently, im working on going back to school to be an addiction counselor . We need to come together and kill this epidemic. Too many beautiful souls gone from this…
I hope you all are well and I welcome any new sober friends . Take care and God Bless