Thank you for sharing. You mentioned, you don’t know how long you can go on. Let me tell you…
You can go until the next time you fall asleep.
Don’t try to overcome your struggles ‘forever’ or ‘once for all time’. Just try to go to sleep at bedtime, without having treated yourself unkind.
You may not feel like it, but you do deserve to receive kindness from yourself. We all do deserve that.
You also deserve to nourish your body, treat it kindly, and care for it.
Thank you for coming to this community to share. Hang in there; don’t give up or give in.
By the way, I believe more people may see your posts if you post to the ongoing daily check in thread that most of us use.Checking in daily to maintain focus #87
Hoping the best for you. 
