Wednesday gratitude.
Today I’m grateful for a calm, rainy day. I’m grateful the youngsters stole some dates and play with them. It’s funny. I’m grateful for the noises they make when you touch them unexpectedly.
I’m grateful for the beautiful scenery at sunset: clouds around the blue mountains, fog in the valleys, a few spots of sun shimmering through the grey sky. Beautiful.
I’m grateful I pulled myself together quickly after my ex called to ask or tell me that he will be here on friday to fetch his last item. Holy Molly can I go from relaxed to mimimi in seconds. WTF. I need a brain & emotion overhaul, this reactions are ridiculous. I refuse to be kind to myself about this, I want my codependent longing for love and connection mimimi to shut the fuck up. This case is closed. Basta. Get it. Grrrrr … *growls at her creepy feelings
I’m grateful the psychiatrist agrees with my want to cut out the sleeping meds completely. I want it for several reasons and my body can adapt and find a natural balance in the coming months as I have nothing scheduled that could be heavily impacted by consequences of poor sleep for a while. I’m grateful I’ve been working consistently to improve my health or to find a good balance with the restrictions given. Progress, trial & error.
I’m grateful for a nap undee two blankets, a bowl of yummi salad, coffee with a friend, my reliable car, tea, hot showers, a cozy house, freedom, peace and safety. I’m grateful for a calm and happy mood, that I feel blessed and that I’m deeply grateful for it. I’m grateful for fake it till you make it - faking being a responsible adult will make tomorrow ME happy & grateful because she will have hot water to shower. Grateful I dragged my dozy ass to fire the furnace.
I’m grateful I can pick up the new slatted frames tomorrow on my way home from therapy. My back & hips are looking forward to it.
I’m grateful for the reminder to think about a solid plan for Christmas season to stay sober. Why would you "test" your sobriety? - #268 by erntedank
Saying good night soon, stay sober & focused fellows 
ODAAT