thursday gratitude.
today iām grateful for all the hard work i put into personal development and the progress iāve made in the last years.
iām grateful i didnāt loose my shit when i fucked up today, i shook my head, left my wonderwuzzi where it was stuck in the mud and took steps to a) donāt make it worse
b) reached out for help
c) did what i could towards solving the problem in the future. not today. not tomorrow. maybe saturday when the soil is frozen. shit happens. no harm done. problem solvable. just life being lifey on the farm 
iām deeply heartfelt grateful that i stayed calm and mumbled WTF instead of feeling overwhelmed, panic, overthink and get desperated over another burden on my plate. what a fucking mess i was in this toxic marriage, how lost and disconnected from myself. now i have calm, quiet, strength and serenity in abundance, enough to even grin about fucking up. last time same episode was 12 years ago and my ex got stuck in the muddy grassland with the Land Rover. Fortunately my memory is good and I avoided some problems today taking instant steps
when you fuck up, do it decent is my motto of the day.
besides farm shenanigans iām grateful the zoo is as fine as possible and the dogfarts didnāt make me vomit. God knows where this comes from or what this dog catches to eat when I donāt look. iām grateful for my farty dog, i love him. iām grateful cancer cat had a quite active day, grateful for quality time with both cats.
iām grateful the plumber finished repairs at the townhouse, one item off the to do list 
iām grateful i ordered the stonewall, they will start early december.
iām grateful step by step things get done.
iām grateful for therapy, for tea, for the heated pillow in my back, for parcel delivery, for online shopping, for washers of all kind, for trash collect, for lovely neighbours, good friends, all the blessings in my life, joy, laughter, a piece of chocolate cake I treated myself to today, hot showers, a warm house, comfy cloths, leftovers, Christmas decoration, ⦠the list goes on and I go to sleep now.
ODAAT