Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery

And I love your Rocky the squirrel posts! :heart: :chipmunk:

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Maxine i totally understand loneliness and I only took it as just that. I do also understand that sometimes I myself can read about others lives or the parts they share online and it can add to those feelings. I just wanted to put some reality to my posts I guess. Its not all rainbows and sunshine however grateful I try to be for all the warts :rofl:

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G’morning :sun_behind_small_cloud::sunflower::yellow_heart:

I’m grateful for this new day, for the hope it’s better than yesterday, and for knowing I won’t be drinking if it’s not.

I’m grateful I read your shares before starting my gratitude this morning. @maxwell @Shaunda I relate in different ways to both of your stories. I naively believed that sobriety would improve my relationship with my husband, but I had long drowned the problems between us with alcohol. I’ve been facing those problems for the past 11 months. Sometimes I sit in the loneliness with my books and my meditations, and I try to learn how to be a better person, a different person, so that my husband will realize I’m doing all I possibly can. Other times I tell him how I feel and that I don’t know how much more work I can do on me before it makes a difference to him. You know how the Bible says that God is never changing? Well, that describes my husband to a T. Maxine, I was thinking last night if staying with someone simply because they’re the person I’m closest to in this world is worth all the loneliness, especially knowing they are right here but unwilling to change. I don’t know the answer, yet. I’m grateful I’m still working on it.

I’m grateful I look to others who know what this loneliness feels like. I’m grateful we have each other, and I’m grateful we don’t drink anymore. :heart:

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One of the many things I like about this forum is the honesty people share. The ups and downs and our non perfect lives. :rainbow: :sun_with_face: :rose::star_struck:

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I’m grateful for so many things this morning. But currently Alice warmly on my lap purring away like a Geiger counter.
I’m grateful today I think it’s kind of fun getting up at 4:45 to get the dogs out for their walk before it’s too hot. Grateful for my Pixie. My coffee. I’m grateful I already got my walk in too. And all that before 7am. Is that how’s it’s done @Sunflower1 ? I’m grateful I don’t drink because by 9 o’clock I’d be ready for a beer or a Bloody Mary. I’m grateful I got my whole sober day ahead of me.

I’m grateful for the extreme sober emotional roller coaster of my life as my DIL had to go back to the hospital last night with my son because her blood pressure was off the charts. They are back home again. She is ok. But I’m so grateful I could be sober and be support for him last night by text. If I wasn’t sober I wouldn’t have been there for my boy last night. I’m grateful I REMEMBERED IT THIS MORNING. unlike someone else I know :grimacing:. Im grateful I live with a constant reminder how great being sober is!! Im so fucking grateful I can always be there for my children and grandchildren. I never have to wonder if I had too much to drink and not answer the phone or text because I didn’t want them to know.

I’m grateful I was interrupted my my landscape lighting guy and it was an easy fix so Minnie and Benson won’t have to Whizzy in the dark tonight.

I’m grateful for baby pics and videos.
I’m grateful for this Home Group thread. I’m grateful how important it is to me.

I’m grateful I’m working a new schedule in the morning.
I. Hate. Change. :grimacing:.
Well I’m grateful I use to hate change. I’m grateful I’m embracing my changed morning routine. And if anything it’s messing up my brain and keeping me away from thoughts of depression and a poor me pity party. And especially keeping me from thoughts of drinking. I’m grateful I can retrain my brain at such a late stage of my life. I’m grateful I can be open minded to recovery.
I’m grateful I get to share with people I don’t know. Well I kinda know. But y’all know what I mean. I’m grateful I keep getting text notices and they are baby pics from my son as I write this. I guess Mom is well today.
I’m grateful to God.
:pray:t2::purple_heart::cactus:

We put so much pressure on ourselves that we forget to look around and see where we are or how far we came.
I don’t know who said this.

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I’m grateful we have each other too. :heart: I don’t talk about my 1st husband often, but he was a functioning alcoholic, he always went to work, but by 330pm, he would be at the bar, or a friend’s house. And by the time he got home he was drunk, then he would drink the rest of the night in our garage, come in and pass out on the floor in front of the TV. My son would sometimes roll him on his side in case he threw up. This went on daily for years.

I was the normal one back then as I was raising my son. I remember the struggle to get thru to my husband, how we could be so happy, we had what we needed, nice house, etc. But I didn’t have him, he was a lost soul drowning in alcohol. I was with someone, but extremely lonely. TG I had my son, we did a lot together and I’m thankful for that time.
That marriage did end due to that. So maybe the moral to my story, I should just be alone. :joy: :heart: :purple_heart:

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This is what my wife use to do to her mother. It’s so sad. I’m grateful I don’t think my wife is a monster. I try to keep the focus on me but I know I complain about my wife sometimes. I’m grateful I truly know it’s this fucking disease that fucks up so much in life.
:pray:t2:

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I’m going to share what I wrote in my book this morning. Many of my gratitudes are self talk to get me out of negative thinking about something. Suck as how busy I have been recently.

Today I will be grateful for my busy day. The last 11 months all I could do was lay in bed or drink to deal with the vertigo and sensory overload to get me out of bed. So, today, instead of grumbling about being busy I will stop and thank God for healing me so I can be present in my life AND move to be busy. Just say His name, take a breath and find some thankfulness that I am moving again, that I am participating again, that I am sober again.

Have a wonderful day friends. :hugs:

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I am grateful to be sober.
I am grateful for our health care system.
I am grateful I can afford fresh veggies.
I am truly grateful that I like what I cook for myself.
I am grateful I am still here.
I am grateful I almost finished the fire module today. That was really a hard session after my workout.
I am grateful for my colleagues.

I am happy I had a refund of !! € 2.10 for electricity :joy:
Still curious for the gas bill. :see_no_evil: This won’t be funny.

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11 months! :muscle:full trip around the sun :sun_with_face: coming up next! Congrats!

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Thanks Jason! :hugs::relaxed:

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I am grateful for colleagues that work their butts off to give kids great opportunities
I am grateful for a voice to sing with
I am grateful for my husband for making a delicious dinner

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My condolences on the loss of your friend. Thank you for sharing your gratitude and struggle :hugs:

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I’m grateful @Dazercat Norma was born safe and sound. :two_hearts:
I’m grateful that @ShesGotMoxie just hit her 11 month sobriety mark. You are strong, smart and have such a big heart. I’m really grateful you are here Carolyn.
I’m grateful that I have tools for when I feel extra sensitive, anxious, or am stuck in a pattern of overthinking and negative self talk. Now that I’m more aware of it, I notice how frequently I do it. I’m grateful that I always have the choice to be kind to myself. How you speak to yourself matters. I’m grateful I am working on giving myself grace and compassion. It’s not just a gift I can give others.
I’m grateful that when I take the time to slow down- I reflect, instead of react. Starting a new job has brought up my need for perfectionism and people pleasing. I’m grateful I’m working on breaking these patterns. I’m grateful that fact that I’m noticing these patterns shows me how far I’m come.
I’m grateful I have a voice.
I’m grateful I can let go of things that do not serve me.
I’m grateful I am not responsible for mind reading or guaranteeing the happiness of others.
I’m grateful I can choose love, understanding, and thoughtfulness every single day.

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Good evening all,
I’m grateful for laughs with coworkers, and a work day that didn’t suck. I’m grateful @Dazercat got so much done so early this morning- very impressive! I’m grateful for my family, and for love and forgiveness. @Bootz , my condolences for the passing of your friend, what an amazing thing to be able to honor them sober. I’m grateful for you guys, the gratidudes, my home group.
Everyone have a wonderful evening :heart:

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First, I’m grateful to hear from @Bootz and echo same as others. Condolences, friend, and gratitude that you could honor your friend and her family as you did. :pray:

Grateful for last night’s storm. The day’s weather, actually. It started overcast. Rained cats and dogs in the morning. Was beautiful after work - smelled so fresh. A long walk with the dog girl, found some shade to sit in and listen to the birds by the pond. Woke past midnight to a display of lightning that lasted a few hours! Thunder in the distance (and cuddles with the dog girl). Grateful to be present to take it all in.

I’m grateful for the tests, work-wise and life-wise, of the last few days. I’m grateful to be able to learn that the chaos of the day is always outside me. It may be pounding at my (internal) door, begging me to engage and be hooked by it all! Grateful for the peephole in my door. :wink: Grateful I can decide when and where and how to engage. Or not. Grateful I know no matter who knocks, there’s nobody and nothing that warrants a drink.

I’m grateful for @Sunflower1 coining this thread a home group! I’m grateful it’s mine. I’m grateful for all of you.

I’m grateful it’s - apparently - wacky Wednesday! In the spirit of it, I took this for all of you! Yes, my legs are that long. :laughing:

I’m grateful for another day. :orange_heart:

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I’m also so grateful for the topic that @maxwell and @Shaunda and others raised, and the way this thread honestly and compassionately works through these topics together.

Sometimes, when others post that they are grateful for their families, or when I see multi-generational family gatherings on patios - laughter and conversation and affection, etc - I’ll catch myself thinking “lucky f*cking ducks”.
At one time - my family of origin had this (Mostly. I love what @anon74766472 said about the outside/inside). But with my Dad’s passing and my Mom’s aging, events since had me opting for functional estrangement (blessed by my counsellor and a mediator) from my siblings.
I do have a good family of friends, for which I am truly grateful, but after a few good days of family fun and drama? This Auntie M is about ready to hitchhike the hell home!

A long-winded way of saying maybe it’s not either/or. Maybe it’s both/and. You know?

Grateful this thread feels like my TS fam. :orange_heart:

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Thanks M :wink:
Thank you @Sunflower1 :hugs:
I love our Home Group :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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I’m grateful for long legs, how you doin :wink: I’m grateful to be tucking in and to be a proud memeber of @Sunflower1 (and others, you all matter) home group
Good night all and God bless

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Hello Home Team (aka Group)!
Tonight I’m grateful I didn’t drink today, thought about it, but didn’t. :partying_face:

I’m grateful for my home, the Amazon Prime packages I received today. Boring stuff, Lysol products on sale, a couple new diamond painting kits.
I’m grateful for Max who I picked up once a few weeks ago & put on his bed for the night because he was standing in the kitchen forever. Now he wants me to do it every night at bedtime. A year ago Max didn’t like to be picked up, brushed, groomed, didn’t really understand me petting him. Now he will back into me on the couch so I pet him.
I’m grateful for Riley and all her weirdness and love. She waits until Max drinks then puts her head next to him and drinks (they share a bowl, she didn’t like her own). She did the same with my last dog Jake, but he was 90lbs, so she would stand under him and drank whenever he did.
I’m grateful to all of you, you make me feel like I’m not alone. Not just in sobriety, but in my heart. :heart: :pray:

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