I know it involves a keyboard, but I’m here for ya James. Also feeling lonely for no good reason, particularly as I cancelled my social plans to be at home by myself. Wtf - I sometimes can’t figure out my mood.
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Thanks. I’m feeling down on myself because my social situation is my responsibility/own doing in a sense, and because I struggle to accept having days where I don’t accomplish much beyond feeding myself. Reminding myself that it is what it is, and to remember which things are in my power to change.
I’ve calmed down enough to go out for a walk, so I’ll go while it’s light (especially with the shorter days weighing on me), so I’ll then see if I can let go of my expectations before I get back. Then maybe I’ll hang around TS a bit, or try to get somewhere with my music. Dunno, everything feels stressful right now.
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A walk sounds like a good idea
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Sorry you’re feeling down James. Would it help if we made you the lead singer and keyboardist in our boy band? You would be adored by millions!
Seriously… hope you’re feeling better after a walk and some fresh air.
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I’ll take the job! 
Feeling lots better. Of all the things I’ve tried today, it seems to have been the first to actually take me down a notch. Did some meditation as I walked, and that combination seems to have been the ticket. I’ve been noticing that since I started these meds, paradoxically, though I have more anxiety, my tools for anxiety are actually working better.
I went to this spot I like, sitting on a concrete foot of a support for a bridge, under a highway, tucked into a narrow valley with a creek running below. I feel sheltered by the surroundings, and comforted by the vibrations of the passing trucks overhead and running water below. The urban-natural fusion of steady background noise makes it easier to quiet my mind for some reason.
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Oh James I wish this passes soon. I know how crappy it can be. Been there. You need a good talk and a good looong hug. Let’s all hug James-challenge starts now 
Edit just saw your latest posts. Glad to hear your better and I insist you be the keyboardist and the composer of HannaBanana group! What boy band is it if there are no four 🤦
But mostly important, you all will have to have boy band names… So?
Edit one lacks, @chicagoT would be an amazing but “evil” producer?
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Ha! Everyone knows that boy bands need 4 heart throbs and 1 goofy guy that nobody likes. 
Since we already have the FunnyD, Keyboard Jimmy, Motown Philly, and GoeffyGeoff
I’ll be the dorky one 
Edit; it’s late - those are the best names I could come up with 
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Just hilarious! The nicks are perfect, may I adjust a little? No? I’ll do it anyhow… KeyB’Jimmy and DorkyDork?
But actually, ChigagoT is already a boy band name and would suit perfectly the mean ass producer
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@ifs,James that sounds like a great place to sit and collect your thoughts. I like the idea of the urban-nature. And in our life’s it’s great to get that balance, as both play such a large part of our lifes.
Guys, James is definitely the good looking 
throb. I suppose Jazzy Jeff is already taken.
Of course ChicagoT will get shortened to T so I became GG. Or Gigi. My alta- ego. All long flowing hair, silk, sequins and feathers! Just a thought
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T that’s bad ass. And Gi-gi too. But we need someone to replace marky mark. Otherwise I’m out 
as a groupie…
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I’m with you there I just got up for work and got shakes, anxiety and just wanna cry. Gotta get through this.
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You can and will get through this - let us know how you are. 
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1st break at work. sweaty, hot, banging head, sad. This is the 3rd time I’ve quit and I’ve never felt like this before. There definitely won’t be a 4th.
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Sorry your feeling so poo! I found it useful to jot down all the withdrawal symptoms in a list of reason not to drink, I keep it handy to fight cravings. Can you get an early finish head home for some TLC. Remember this feeling will pass and life on the other side is great 
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hugs for 
Yes, write that stuff down, maybe a letter to yourself about how you feel and how you don’t want to feel this way again. Remember to eat and hydrate. 
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thank you. It really does help to have you all out there, no one else really understands
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