On the 20th Nov 2016 I was asked to be a godparent to my stepsons baby son. As the coming week began to unfold I began to start worrying and stressing as they were having a party in a pub after the church. Which I was expected to attend. The night before I couldn’t sleep and so I decided to iron my suit pants at 1am. Due to stressing I burnt a hole right through the pants. In the morning I was a nightmare I was stressing with my 2 sons as I had to get them both to bolton train station to go to the christening as I wouldn’t have had enough room in the car. Then I had to go to next to buy another suit then pick my daughter her partner and baby up. Come home get changed and drive 27 miles to the church all within 3hrs. I was a nightmare. Before taking the boys I remembered I needed to do my daily reflections. Also I’m new to AA 6 Sept 16 and had only started doing daily reflections the week before. I always read the page in the big book that it states I didn’t realise you had to have the correct book as on that day I read page102 of AA I should of read twelve steps and 12 traditions pg 102. You would have to read 102 of the AA big book to see were I’m coming from. I can’t explain how I calmed down whilst reading it. I was able to get everything done and arrive 5mins before the mass began calm and relaxed. After in the pub I couldn’t help but Stare at people’s pints of larger, cider glasses of wine etc. My mouth was watering. I decided to go to the bar and ask the barman. Whom I may ad was in his 20s for a cup of tea. He said sorry his boss said they couldn’t make brews today due to being busy etc. He then said do you not drink? it’s hard coming in these places eh. I told him no I don’t he said let me get you a nice drink he made me bricvic orange and lemonade. He also told me that he drinks whiskey. For the rest of that afternoon he kept an eye on me. I had stopped looking at people’s drinks and felt very relaxed and had a great day. Thank you God for being there for me.
Wanted to start a thread with daily reflections as it is a motivational book that helps me alot. The topic was already used so I will continue on this thread. Here are the daily reflections for June 12th:
From the book - Daily reflections
12
June
FORMING TRUE PARTNERSHIPS
But it is from our twisted relations with family, friends, and society at large that many of us have suffered the most. We have been especially stupid and stubborn about them. The primary fact that we fail to recognize is our total inability to form a true partnership with another human being.
— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 53
Can these words apply to me, am I still unable to form a true partnership with another human being? What a terrible handicap that would be for me to carry into my sober life! In my sobriety I will meditate and pray to discover how I may be a trusted friend and companion.