Made it to 68days then went out to celebrate 19yrs marriage with hubby…thought I was strong enough but just caved spur of the moment within mins it was as if I had never stopped drinking…that was last w’end…I swore that would be a rarity and stayed sober for 6 days…until yesterday after a 12hr shift I thought I deserved it 
now feeling like the biggest idiot to have fallen for the lies I let myself tell myself 
anyway feeling blah 
as expected, couldn’t even get out of bed to take my daughter to her ice skating lesson this morning so pathetic. Well here I am again praying everyday to be stronger than my addiction.
1 Like
Welp, at least you know this part of your behaviour and habits… If it’s “spur of the moment” or a treat then you know you end up regretting it. Good on you for recognizing that, good on you for having the courage to acknowledge you’re not happy with your actions, good on you for trying at sobriety again.
2 Likes
Try not to beat yourself up! The addiction/mind is so dang ticky! The fact you made it 68 days is a great accomplishment so I have faith you can beat that number again. 
2 Likes