Hi friends. I’m still hanging in there. Joining zoom meetings every bight and FINALLY braved the dust under my bed and pulled out my Big Book.I read whatever page i open the book to and it’s been what I needed to read in that moment. I still have not gone to
an in person meeting, but I am not giving up on myself. When Im resy I
will get there. I’d love some advice on how to get over that initial fear of going? I don’t trust people, especially strangers and I worry about true anonymity.
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I am so glad you are here and wanting a sober life. I can understand your anxiety for attending your first meeting. My personal experience of 1 1/2 years of meetings and reading the majority of meeting attendees here the meetings are people who feel just like you. They have been where you are. All the people I have met are genuinely happy I am there and willing to help in any way they can. You can stay silent and just listen. These folks will not force you to say or do anything you do not want to. If you do share you don’t have to share your innermost personal feelings unless you want to. I hope you try to get to a meeting. If you don’t like it try another one. Stay here and keep us posted.
How are you today? Glad to see younare still sober and working on an in person meeting. You might not ever feel truly “ready” but like it was said above, the peiple there understand you, want to hear from the newcomer, but will never pressure you. What helped me was having something ready to say if asked and I dont want to share like “hi im Sarah, Im an alcoholic and I have 62 days. I dont have much to share but i appreciate listening to all of you. Thanks for the meeting.” Short and simple. However, I have come to rely upon sharing in meetings for my own mental health.
A year later and starting another Day 1. Still not giving up hope. Going to focus in the day and only the day. This past year has been so hard and I’m lose hope alot.
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Hey 
and welcome back. I see you’ve been struggling, maybe it’s time to look at how you’re tackling your addiction? You need sober tools in your arsenal to help get you through those tough moments when the addiction bites. How will you do things differently this time? There’s a link below to a great post, with lots of people sharing their own experiences. I hope you stick around, there’s plenty to read here to support your sober journey 
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Welcome back!! Im glad u havent given up. What are some things that will do/not do to gain sobriety again? I find getting back to the basics of recovery very helpful when I had relapsed or havw become complacent. Glad to see u again!
Yes, clearly I can’t be trying the same methods that have failed me in the past. I’m going to try and attend meetings everyday, read literature, and seek mindfulness. My problem is exactly that, I become complacent and I let my worst judgments get the best of me. My biggest and hardest struggle is boredome and isolation which I have to still figure out how I am going to overcome.
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Hello! Finishing up Day 12. Its been a struggle but I’m grateful to be sober today.
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Happy to see you hit day 12, probably day 13 now. Keep up the good work, you’re worth it. 