I have finally come to terms with the fact I cannot do this alone.
I am feeling very scared and it is hard for me to give myself positive affirmations.
I feel like I let everyone down and I am ashamed.
I want to put it down and live life closer to normal than this misery I have been choosing.
I want to recover and be better.
I don’t want to live like this anymore…
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Welcome to TS. We are so glad you are here. Sometimes the first step is the hardest. Thee is so much great information here. Have a read and reach out. Focus on one hour at a time. It is a battle that is worth the fight. 
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Welcome 
This is a really great community and it’s what I’ve been using as my place of connection and understanding as I gave up my old and deathly lifestyle.
I know that feeling of hopelessness and shame very well and I assure you that there is so much more to life.
Grab a cup of tea, read around and make yourself comfortable. 
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Here is the good news, you don’t have to live like that anymore! Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, things will get better, and all the people that you let down we’ll see and feel the changes, you won’t have to wake up feeling guilty anymore. You can do it! Keep coming back.
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You’ve definitely come to the right place. Welcome to TS 
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Congratulations and welcome !!! May 15th. Out of the 365 days to choose from, I would say
Today is in my top 25 ! This could be the 1st day of the rest of your sober life 
Sir Edmund Hillary and his Sherpa Tetsung Norgay were the first people to stand on the summit of Mt Everest, also the first McDonalds drive thru opened.
Reach out to TS before you pick up. You won’t regret this life changing decision. Stay strong and hopeful! 
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I was in a similar mind until I found TS and recovery dharma (recovery program) most of my family has no idea I’m in recovery (shows how much they pay attention 
) So we welcome you with open eyes and minds. Highly recommend reading the What’s your plan thread. Full of great info. Also checking in daily is very helpful as well. 
Light & Love
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Hi from Scotland dont know if you have tried any meetings face to face lots of programs out there can use them and here to further your sobriety wish you well
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I was in the same exact boat. Overwhelmed with shame, anxiety, and pain. It wasn’t fun anymore. I found this app and realized I wanted to be free of alcohol more than I wanted to continue living with it and the lies that it promised. It gets easier , welcome ! 
Welcome! If you haven’t tried in-person meetings yet, I suggest finding one! I wish you the best on your journey! And I’m glad you’re here!
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