Day 1 - Found a missing piece of myself

Releasing i had to be 100% honest with myself about my addiction has been the most excruciating thing I’ve ever been through in my life, but also liberating. Deciding to commit to getting clean for myself led me to one of the most grounding, and emotional moments I’ve ever experienced.
Ever since I can remember, I’ve carried this underlying feeling of guilt everywhere I went, and i could never get rid of it.
After deciding to quit, I went for a walk along the beach. Smelling the salt in the air, feeling the cold sand under my feet, and the sound of the water rippling, it was as if I was experiencing it for the very first time in my life. I couldn’t help but cry, and actually felt genuine freedom for the first time. That feeling of guilt just for existing is gone. Actually gone! I can finally breathe.

I know the path ahead is going to be more challenging that anything I’ve ever had to do, but the high I felt from life at that moment was better than any high I’ve ever gotten from drugs.
I just hope that on my lowest, darkest days that are to come i can remember that feeling and soldier on.

It’s time to live my life with integrity. Doing this because it’s the right thing to do, for myself and my family even when it gets hard.


That’s beautiful and makes me emotionnal because I had this kind of breakthrough too. Wish you the very best. :sunflower:


Hi Maggie, it’s great having you here. Take your time and read through the different threads. There’s so much wisdom in here. So many stories and so many wonderful people willing to give a hand, and an ear and a voice.
Take it one day at a time and never stop fighting the good fight.
Wishing you all the best on your journey.


Congratulations that you found that missing piece! Take it one day at a time, or even one hour at a time. You can do it and it will get easier. Take your time and use this community as your ressource - it will help you


Welcome to the community, glad to have you here :slightly_smiling_face:

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Beautiful post, Maggie. Thanks for sharing this. And a huge welcome to TS! Glad you are here! This place made a huge difference for me, hope you find it helpful as well.

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