So close to my day 30 and I lost it. I went a welcome back party for a family member and I did so well.
There were drinks everywhere, and I even remember thinking about the post I’d make explaining my willpower. Then my uncle handed me wine and said it was gift. I can’t say no to this, I thought to myself. So I drank it, and it felt so weird… then really good. But no more after this.
The next day, I said I’ll start over. Went to a friend’s house that I was house/pet sitting for. She left me vodka. And not the cheap kind I buy myself, the expensive kind. And all these excuses and more led me to sabotaging the 25 days I’ve built.
I woke up this morning recalling last night’s decisions and last night’s future plans, and it made me remember why I decided to quit. So I’m back! Silver lining (I hope) no intense withdrawals this time! Day 1, here we go!
sorry to hear you had aslip on the way back now , when i got sober i was told that i havnt a mental defence against the first drink but the program i practice in my life gives me the strengh to say no ! my late sponsor explained to me that if you put kids in a candy store they will be tempted ! so i avoid the first few months of going into drinking places until i got strong enough to be there wish you well
Welcome back! Isn’t this Day 1 so much nicer than your first day 1? More experience, more clarity, and as you say, no intense withdrawal. Sorry to hear of your slip but glad you’re back at it.
Something that might have helped you - let these people know that you have a problem with alcohol, and you’re trying to solve it. I know that’s ridiculously hard, but if you’re getting gifts of booze, you’re not likely to turn them down.
Both well said @Ignatius and @SassyRocks. Welcome back to day 1 @Bre. Treat this as a learning experience. We are all works in progress. You CAN do this! We all got your back. Best wishes in your quest for sobriety.
@SassyRocks, @SobahCobra79, @Ray_M_C_Laren, and @Ignatius you all are so right. Definitely a learning experience! People who do not come around a lot have not seen the way I drink, so they think I deserve it since I do so much… and it’s still hard for me to elaborate and be honest with everyone. I was talking to a friend about it, I need to set strict boundaries.
I have a friend who always tries to get me to drink. When I say no she buys me a shot and says it doesn’t count as a drink lol. One time I raised the glass and threw it over my shoulder!!! The rest of the time I just push it away and ignore it. It probably helps that I don’t like shots but even if she hands me a beer I refuse to drink it. I won’t let anyone bully me out of my choice not to drink. Stay strong and good luck.
I was always a lone drinker. Not much for social drinking probably coz I was afraid I’d embarrass myself! Saying no to others is easy. Standing up to myself when that inner voice starts tempting me is a whole other battle of wills and one I don’t always win. We keep trying though.
