I am starting to not drink as of today for at least one month, assuming I can make it two weeks… i had a problem awhile back, I almost got a DUI. I am not sure if I have an actual problem but I figured I better be safe than sorry. I know I spend too much money and sometimes drink in order not to feel bad for myself, I flirt (and other things) with too many people, some of wo i know have significant others. I dont like the looks I get when I get drunk, but i enjoy the feeling of not being in control because i always have to be. However, i dont like the person others see in me. I gained way too much weight while drinking and i just want to minimize it. I want to be in control of what I am doing and not crave another drink or drive in circles around my local bar wondering if I should go in.
I want to do better.