No apology necessary Eric. We have all felt that way. For me the first few weeks were tough as far as how I felt. Grateful I was in a good rehab center. I just took baby steps every day. I went to every group session,took my psych meds,even bonded with a fellow “inmate” for life I now know. I read a book by Ram Dass that changed me,I started meditation practice and I started the process of forgiveness beginning with myself. Hang in there brother. It gets better. When I encounter negative emotions or thoughts or physical discomfort I bring my awareness to my breath. Just sense my breath at my nostrils and follow it as it travels into my lungs and back out through my nostrils. It works for me every time. Keep coming back here. We are in this together. Stay 
strong. We got this. One day at a time!
Thanks brother I am hoping to get all the same things Thurs I’m back with CMHA and doing addiction counselling and many other programs they offer me. I can relate reading has been helpful in other bad situations I was in. Thanks again 
When my nervous system is heightened, sometimes following this for a few minutes helps me…
Cannot recall if shared with you before. 
I have not seen this Sassy thanks for that I do know breathing techniques but I have a hard time applying them when I’m in the moment. Something that I will be working on. 
I have a hard time remembering the tools available to me as well. I have found it useful in the past to keep an easily accessible list of them available on my phone. In fact, I had removed it from my phone awhile ago and this is reminding me that it would be a good time to update and have it on my home screen. It has been a mentally, emotionally and physically challenging 2023. So thank you for the reminder!!