Day 1 is super easy for me generally. I feel like hot dog turds on a warm day, and the last thing I want is alcohol or cigarettes. Day 2 though, well that is another story. As the clock ticks ever closer to 4PM (my trigger), I become restless and my mind begins to make up reasons why it is ok.
“You can just have 1 or 2, no problem.” - Maybe, but probably not
“Just do not smoke” - Yeah right. It’s like believing you will have only one slice of pizza
“Stress will kill you, you know” - And of course smoking and abusing alcohol will not?
So here I am on the doorstep of 2 days sober, and I guess, as long as I have good answers to my brains arguments for why I should, I will be fine. The next few hours, and this wonderful resource, I believe will get me through it.
Thanks so much to those I have already interacted with here, community and the support one finds in it, truly makes a big, big difference.
I hear the same voices in my head. Those voices we hear are the Devil talking. He doesn’t want you and I to feel good and be happy. Last thing he wants us to feel is victory over our denins. He is real and he wants all of us all to fail. Because up to this point t we were doing exactly what he wanted.
You got this. Think of it like a street fight and fight like dog. Those voices can’t beat you.
I had the same type of issue. But mine was “Wake and Bake.” For much of my life I was Ok with it because I felt functional. Then it really started to disgust me. And often it lead into 15-20 Coors Lights.
Now my routine is Jump out of bed, I say THANK YOU as each foot hits the floor, read a short passage from the Bible, and then get a goodwork out in. Drink a big glass of water and a healthy breakfast.
The key for me was to get the ball of the tee in the morning heading straight down the middle. I’m not saying that the wind doesn’t try and blow me in the rough all day. But I feel strong right away instead of starting out feeling like a failure. I hated starting the day in the deep rough.
You can do this @schalkneethling there is always hope. Try make things in a positive way. As Long as you are willing to not choose the bad habbits and try change the way you do things. Stay focused and stay sober… what do you have to loose .Belive in your self u got this !!
