Today is day thirty for me. The last time I was sober for 30 days, on the thirth day I drank. I was just trying to cut back and I think show myself I could do it.
Over a year later and after quite a lot happening in my life I realized that I can no longer just cut back. This past month has been hard, very emotional and a lot of anger and resentment. I had started reading a book last year- multiple actually all at the same time.
“Choose the life you want” The mindful way to happiness. By Tal Ben-Shahar. Short chapters on to the point topics. Chapter one- Just Live your Life or Choose to Choose?
Choosing to choose means searching for the paths that lead to change- Tal Ben-Shahar
Choice is creation.
To choose is to create.
Through my choices I create my reality.
At every moment in my life I have a choice.
Moments add up to a lifetime; choices add up to a life.
What kind of life do I want for myself?
What choices will create this kind of life?
So today my sister came to help me clean my house. I have been working six days a well the past two month, I’ve been neglecting my house, kids, husband myself.
I’ve only been able to keep from drinking, working and coming home to be depressed, tired and happy all at the same time.
I am happy that I have made the choice to choose being sober and being a better me. I am taking some vitamins that others on here have adviced to help with depression.
I feel like now that my house is cleaned up that my head is in a better place and that I can start focusing on working on myself. So my other book I am just picking up is My Pocket Mantra by Tanaaz Chubb. The mantra I have kept in my head for over a year now is:
“ I am ready for change in my life that is for my highest good.”
I think it is finally manifesting but it’s going to take a lot of work. I am ready to be happy and healthy. I am ready to be positive, I am ready to think before I speak and speak calmly.
Thanks for listening. Check out those books if you are looking for a short read in the morning before work, something to ponder.