Also to clarify, I’m still sober now. I’m just not drinking, and you can too!
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Thank you! Yes! I just want the days to pass so I can get out of this horrible initial phase. And start regaining the trust from those around me. 
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The good news is all you have do is NOTHING. Just don’t drink and the days will fly by. You’ve got this.
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Oh my gosh!!! You’re awesome!! I’m so proud of you!! You did the right thing!!! I’m proud of you!!! I remember going through what you just described. I ended up buying that drink with my last five dollars and ran out of gas on the freeway at night. Had to sleep there until someone came to help me the following day. It was all bad. You rock!!
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Aaah, thank you girl, you just brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for your support. 
So glad you talked yourself out of that thinking. Our addiction really does what it can to try and keep us in its throws. You are stronger today for having another day sober 
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Keep up the amazing work…it does get easier
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Getting out of the initial phase is a great target, day 9 here and each day has been tough but somehow less awful than having another day 1.
Good luck with finding the right meds etc for yourself, please don’t be discouragedif they don’t hit the right type/dose right away. I’ve done a few different rounds some agreed with me and some didn’t, currently relying mostly on therapy and hope, every support along the way has helped!
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Gratitude is an action, like sitting with others who are in pain and discomfort and realizing you can do something about your own discomfort. Good on ya!
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Way to go! Keep going.
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Thank you! Yes, day 1 was HELL, and seemed to go on forever. Thankfully I had my mother and father holding me up, hugging me, cheering me on, my dad even went out and got me Pedialyte without me even asking, might seem like a small gesture, but oh how it showed me how much love I have.
I am truly blessed.
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Definitely, sitting there was so humbling and soul wrenching. It almost made me feel like an imposter.
Here I am, I was able to keep my job, they even game me intermittent FMLA, I have a home and a vehicle, nice clothes. Most other patients there were homeless, or living in shelters, or SERIOUSLY mentally disturbed. And you sit there in the painful chaos and realize we’re all the same here. That could be me too, if it wasn’t for sheer luck and the amazing support system I have in my family and friends. Through all this horrible process I’m going through I realize how blessed I am despite everything, despite my mistakes.
One more reason to keep going.
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I feel this is many ways - I temporarily stuffed up my health through drinking but other than that I seem to have come out of an addiction unscathed. I am particularly grateful for that and feel almost ashamed that others lost so much more 
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That’s actually amazing! Sometimes those small gestures are actually huge. Glad you have some folks around to give you encouragement, you’ve got this.
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Thank you.