# Day 50 and i am really stuggling today š
**URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487
**Category:** Life in Recovery
**Created:** [January 14, 2017, 6:27pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487 "2017-01-14T18:27:00Z")
**Posts on this page:** 15
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### Author:  [@Gemmaparker79](https://talkingsober.com/u/Gemmaparker79)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 6:27pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/1 "2017-01-14T18:27:01Z")
I have managed to get to day 50 which is fantastic butā¦i am really finding it hard today š I want a drink so so bad!!
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### Author:  [@Tonyb](https://talkingsober.com/u/Tonyb)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 6:39pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/2 "2017-01-14T18:39:33Z")
Keep fighting donāt give in.. you are doing amazing to be at day 50.. think about what has triggered the craving and try to find some other way to get around itā¦ donāt give in š
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### Author:  [@Cdesmond13](https://talkingsober.com/u/Cdesmond13)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 6:44pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/3 "2017-01-14T18:44:55Z")
Please do not give in!!! I relapsed and am back at day 2. Itās not just 1! You will be out for a while. It is so tough to get back to where you are now, I am trying. Please keep strong and donāt give in!
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### Author:  [@Sierra](https://talkingsober.com/u/Sierra)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 6:46pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/4 "2017-01-14T18:46:53Z")
How long were you clean before the relapse? Have you found anything that helps with the cravings, urges, and withdraws? I am quitting heroin cold turkey and have been clean for 12 hours, but its starting to get really tough.
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### Author:  [@Leigh](https://talkingsober.com/u/Leigh)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 6:51pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/5 "2017-01-14T18:51:32Z")
I WOULD be at day 46 now but I lost control and had to reset a week ago. I can say first hand that it was horrible. It was nothing like I expected, it was just this bizarre, alien, empty experience, like no matter how much I drank I never felt drunk or happy. Just like a dirty feeling but you canāt shower to wash it off. It was not worth losing 40 days over.
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### Author:  [@Sierra](https://talkingsober.com/u/Sierra)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 6:54pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/6 "2017-01-14T18:54:14Z")
I havenāt been drinking. My drug of choice is heroin, but its rough! I decided tog et clean last week, and made it 5 days before I relapsed. now I am starting over. Do you have any advice for getting through cravings and withdraw symptoms?
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### Author:  [@Leigh](https://talkingsober.com/u/Leigh)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 7:02pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/7 "2017-01-14T19:02:15Z")
Of course!!! I actually wrote a whole thing about crushing cravingās you can read here š [Leigh's Guide to Crush Cravings: Part.1](http://talkingsober.com/t/leighs-guide-to-crush-cravings-part-1/3946) Iām working on part 2 right now. Most of the advice I Imagine works across the board. Heroine withdrawals I donāt have a lot of experience with but I do have a supplement thread you can check out to help with recovery via supplementās/vitamins [Must Have Supplements For Recovery!](http://talkingsober.com/t/must-have-supplements-for-recovery/4266) best!
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### Author:  [@Tonyb](https://talkingsober.com/u/Tonyb)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 7:08pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/8 "2017-01-14T19:08:43Z")
@Sierra I have never taken drugs but I suppose itās the same as kicking any habit . My advice is to rid your life of anything that is connected to heroin that means friends also. You also need to understand that heroin is no better or worse than any other addiction you are as important as any other person on this world. Last of all understand your triggers and what makes you use, put a plan in place to deal with them . And most importantly love yourself
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### Author:  [@alpine\_1975](https://talkingsober.com/u/alpine_1975)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 7:17pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/9 "2017-01-14T19:17:25Z")
@Sierra, a lot of people who are trying to get off heroine end up going to detox/rehab to try and kick the habit. There are also synthetic drugs like suboxone that addicts use to ween themselves off. Unfortunately that stuff is also addictive. It sounds like you havenāt been using that long and arenāt chronic so to speak. Iād bet you can tough out the withdrawal symptoms and fight off the cravings Iām positive you could get clean on your own. If your boyfriend is not on the same program, that could be detrimental. Good luck!
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### Author:  [@Charlesfreck](https://talkingsober.com/u/Charlesfreck)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 8:40pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/10 "2017-01-14T20:40:30Z")
Iāll be joining you on 50 days in just over 3 hours!
Itās not worth throwing all the hard work and shit youāve put yourself through for a couple of hours of guilty gratification and then days of regret.
Come on, letās get to 51!
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### Author:  [@Rod](https://talkingsober.com/u/Rod)
#### Post date: [January 14, 2017, 8:53pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/11 "2017-01-14T20:53:52Z")
I think about drinking most of the day, but I donāt actually want to drink, if that makes sense.
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### Author:  [@Cdesmond13](https://talkingsober.com/u/Cdesmond13)
#### Post date: [January 15, 2017, 7:52pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/12 "2017-01-15T19:52:44Z")
That is a perfect description. Exactly how I felt when I relapsed.
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### Author:  [@Gemmaparker79](https://talkingsober.com/u/Gemmaparker79)
#### Post date: [January 16, 2017, 6:46am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/13 "2017-01-16T06:46:26Z")
Thank you everyone for your support! Because of you guys I MADE IT THROUGH DAY 50!! I am now on day 52!! Wooohoooooo!! God bless you all ššš
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### Author:  [@Katie](https://talkingsober.com/u/Katie)
#### Post date: [January 16, 2017, 7:40am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/14 "2017-01-16T07:40:07Z")
50 days is fantastic - congrats on ur hard work. My longest was 71 days and i gave in and now am starting again..im on day 5. Keep thinking the positive thoughts and try to remember why u started in the first place - u got this x
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### Author:  [@Cdesmond13](https://talkingsober.com/u/Cdesmond13)
#### Post date: [January 16, 2017, 5:31pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/day-50-and-i-am-really-stuggling-today/5487/15 "2017-01-16T17:31:37Z")
Awesome people!!! Day 4 for this guy right here. Always a struggle it seems but we can do this, I know we canā¦!