I made it 8 days although most of them on holiday but now Im home and its getting kind of hard. Its a free day today and I really feel constantly getting cravings. I know that is the exact moment when I can choose to grow and get stronger, but that voice tells me its okay to stay weak and use and drink. Theres justifications crossing my thoughts since I woke up so Ive carefully avoided listening to my mind. Ive meditated, prayed, ate, going to exercise now and possibly talk to my mother about it. Theres a list of things I need to do before I ever use again including writing my last wish and testimony and posting here among other things. I wrote letters to myself to this exact situation and even have a consequence card but somehow I still crave. I do not know why my determination has went so low today. I still want to get clean, and especially today and right now I chose to not use or drink. I am content with the decision but the cravings are getting intense. I wonder what I should do that really helps getting over it.
I don’t avoid listening to my mind so much in those times, rather I actively tell it to Shut up!
I check in here oftener as well. It helps.
I’m on Day 8 myself. You can do this, you have done it for 8 days now. You are strong and better then your addictions. Pick up a hobby. As @sprinkles said check in here as often as you’d like. Read and post, reach out there are others here who are battling along side you, you aren’t alone. Continued luck and best wishes on your journey!
Yes I have to be doing that too
I decided to relapse though I will not give up and can learn from it. I need to be more active in my daily life and avoid a certain Person with whom I may not want to use but still did, so I have no time for that in my life. I have stopped all contact to many people in my life but now theres another one sadly. Luckily I have drug counsil tommorow, where Im sure I can learn more about the reasons for the relapse and how to avoid. For Now, Ill stay sober and Active.