Today is my real day one. Will be my first day in a long time being sober. I am working on my plan for how to stay sober, so far it includes journaling, talking to my loved ones about how bad it has actually gotten, finding a book to read about sobriety, and being here.
I’m ready for this. I’m doing it. I am so happy that I’ve made this decision and am looking ahead.
Every journey starts with that first step. Well done and congratulations on making the commitment to yourself.
Sobriety is the scariest roller coaster you could imagine. You will fight demons and most of all you will fight yourself! Forget what you though or think you know, every day is a blank canvas, every journey you make has it’s dangers and every shop has triggers. You’ll probably notice them more.
Acknowledge them but don’t give in to them.
You are in control, you have the steering wheel to your life, now drive to that destination!
I don’t actually have any yet, so I’ll think about that. Work and life has been so busy, it’s been mostly about keeping afloat for the last couple of years. I know that being sober will help me handle that better, so I guess I’m hoping that getting through this first phase will help me figure out what the next one will look like.
So I made it five days without a drink, then a glass of champagne at a wedding toast which lead to binging the last two days. I didn’t “enjoy” any of it as much as I thought I used to.
So today is my new day one. Feels a little different this time.