Claire! I’m so glad your here and ready to stop! This is a life changing first step for you! You’re welcome here! If you need any thing you can post or message me!
Claire, I am reminded of a section in the Big Blue Book about something just like this. We as alcoholics tried different experiments. We tried only wine or only beer. Or even whiskey with milk in it. We tried drinking only on the weekends, or only at home. Only social or only alone. We are masters of experimentation!
“Half measures” like this never worked. I know it didn’t work for me. I am allergic to alcohol. All alcohol!
Big Book pg 39 in italics says: Absolutely unable to stop drinking on the basis of self-knowledge.
I really didn’t mean offence I’m sorry if it sounded that way. You are 100% right… the alcohol problem does not discriminate! It was just one of many denials i have
Warm welcome. This is the best place to become sober. You are in the right place. Admitting I have a problem is still hard for me too. But deep inside I know for a long time that I have a problem…
Stay here and talk and listen to these wise people. They all make so much sense
Welcome! I hated the label for a long time too and preferred to use “slithering boozehound.” Over time, I feel less shame attached to the label “alcoholic.” It’s actually liberating being able to use and say it. It describes my behavior perfectly and puts me in a group of people here working daily on sobriety who are the bravest, most honest, caring people I’ve ever encountered. I still don’t want to be an alcoholic, but I use that discomfort as fuel to stay sober.
You have just admitted it…great step!!
I had everything you had…I say had because I lost my marriage…the trust of my children, I no longer could work…my life spiralled down further than that. The Universe is giving you this opportunity…please take it Claire. I am new here. Reading what you wrote took me back in life. I can never gain back some of what I have lost if only I had humbled myself. No one sets out in life to become an alcoholic…or drug addict. Admit…then find the root cause of why you drink. xxx
I totally get where your coming from about what you percieve a ‘problem drinker’ to be- all the wonderful media and mummy wine culture makes us think its normal!
Im 37 a teacher, a mum and a wife- but that doesnt mean that behind closed doors i turn into someone else- because i do!
Im back to day 1 after a 5 month stint at sobriety cos it doesnt work for me, well done for reaching out and knowing that it doesnt serve you any more
