I live in the bible belt so almost everything is about god.
I used to drink with āfriendsā and aloneā¦
Was getting to the stage where Iād regularly black out in either scenario.
Iāve not drunk for 3 weeks now and havent had a single call from one of my āfriendsā to find out where iāve beenā¦
Think i probably alienated most of them through drunken bad behaviour.
Made some new friends through AA which is great, even though I struggle with āGodā (and the bible is big here too) Iāve come to think of the word āGodā as just a label for something spiritual (higher power / spirit of the universe / the force etc)ā¦
Most of all I find the meetings useful becase Iām around other people who dont want to drink. Itās probably a good place to be in that respect.
I appreciate that meetings can differ - ive been lucky that the group i go to seem to be a nice crowd of people where i seem to fit in ok.
Itās crazy. I went to bars but realized the ā friends ā were not real friends just bar flies. Still are. It was just the atmosphere of drinking and being around people. Then I started drinking at the house and then moved to the bars because of the moneyā¦ cheaper to drink at home. Really nothing to do with friends. Iāve come to realize they(bar friends) can care less about me.
i drank alone and with friends but i found i was more destructive when i drank in a group setting
I have never drank in a group settingā¦amni the only one who hasnt had friends?
I doubt it Jada, I used the term pretty loosely to mean I was around people.
I call many people I know friends but if I examine that more honestly almost all of them were/are āpeople I knowāā¦
I moved away from home not that long ago but went through a sobering up effort several years back when I was still back home and I realised how few of the people I knew really were friends then.
I feel pretty alone sometimes - even though i kind of like being on my own it can get a bit too much and overwhelming (drinking or sober).
Thats something I find helps with the meetings.
I began drinking socially, but I think my bit of anxiety and hypersensitive awareness made me more comfortable drinking alone. I like to be super aware of my surroundings and I was about 100% sure if I began drinking socially Iād probably not stop until I was incoherent.
I hardly ever drank with friends.
Partyās bars, etc, I drank with people who drank uncontrollably like me.
As time went on, I drank at home to ease into the end of the night, and pass out often alone. Then I just drank to keep off the sickness. The longer I went the worse it became until it nearly killed me
In the end the people I drank with were they my friends no, Iām sober now, where are they? Looking for their next drinking buddy.
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