I’ve recently been diagnosed with BPD. And I’m scared this is what keeps making me relapse? I’ve only recently been put on medication and have not yet felt a change. I need all the advice/knowledge i can get 
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No starting it next week. I find myself loosing my mind sometimes though I also don’t think meds are enough
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I have Bipolar Disorder one myself. So you are not alone at all remember that the more professional help the better in my experience.
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I have Bipolar disorder. I stick to the depressive end, but grew up with a mostly manic father. There is so much I could say.
#1 the right meds can change your life. #2 work with a psychiatrist to find the right meds. #3 have patience - it might take time to find the right meds.
And drinking does not help the situation. At all.
PM me anytime for any reason.
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I am bipolar 1. I had no idea until I quit drinking. Now that I look back, it was painfully apparent. The alcohol fuels the bipolar, and in turn the bipolar fuels the alcoholism. It’s a nasty revolving door that would have eventually led to my death, as my binges were accelerating as my undiagnosed, and untreated mental state worsened.
It isn’t easy to do, but you need to force yourself to push past what your brain is telling you.
You know what is right, and what you need to do. You just have to be strong, and tell yourself no.
Every single day in my early recovery, I repeated to myself on my drive after work " you are stronger than the thoughts going through your head. Just make it home. " just make it home was my mantra.
Anyway, after I got sober, and realized what was going on, I sought help from my doc , who sent me to a psychiatrist. After 7 months of sobriety, and all of those months of feeling every up, down and sideways turn that bipolar took me on, I finally got medicated. I see my psychiatrist every 4 weeks, and my medication specialist is down to every 3 months. Sobriety saved me from my mental illness.
As for meds, it took them almost 20 years to get my grandmother’s meds right, but she never gave in. Never gave up. They got my meds right on the first try, but I was able to describe in great detail the way it affects me. (Thanks to 7 months of sobriety)
I hope they can get you squared away. Please continue trying to get better, and see a shrink. It helps.
Get out of your comfort zone. Force yourself to go out and experience things, even if you don’t want to leave your bed. You are the creator of your destiny, and it is up to you to go create something amazing.
Feel free to message me if you like.
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I know its super confusing. BP= Bipolar, BP2 Bipolar 2 and BPD which is borderline personality disorder.
Which diagnoses did you get ?
Meds usually take 4-6 weeks to kick in with the exception of benzo’s for acute attacks.
Give it some time.
We’re here for you.
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Bpd is borderline personality disorder, but in reality, bpd and bipolar are similar. And are often confused with each other.
we are all fighting the same fight.
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I have been diagnosed with both borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder by the psychistrist. Its torture
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Oof. 
I wouldn’t wish either on anyone.
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Btw, thanks. You are an inspiration to me, too.
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Understood. I have BP2. I enjoy talking with everyone and didn’t mean to sound forward. Just thought it would be helpful for her to know as it confused the crap out of me personally.
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Thanks for clarifying. I am bipolar, I do not have borderline personality disorder. Actually, my diagnosis is a bit unclear. I am symptomatically a depressive, have been my whole life, but my key medication is Lamictal, which is a mood stabilizer. New psychiatrists usually try to pin me as depressive, but when they see that Lamictal is my key, they change their minds and diagnose me bipolar. So, it’s weird.
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Bi-polar 1 here, mostly manic. It took me a couple of tries to get my meds right so don’t get discouraged if the first attempt doesn’t pan out. Just keep trying. I have also found that getting clean works as well as any medication for me as far as managing my symptoms. I’ve also learned a lot about my meds and how they effect my body. I keep a close eye on any possible side effects. I also am very up front and almost pushy with my doctor when it comes to a treatment plan. My goal was to eventually come off meds altogether. Next week’s appointment will probably be the time I do it. This may not work for everyone and I certainly get that, but I just don’t feel comfortable taking so many meds.
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Sounds alot like me. I’m on Lamictal as well and they say BP2. Due to the fact I don’t have mania but can jump around in mood swing elevated above normal ( no where near mania though) to extreme depression, where as major depressive disorder is always in a state of extreme depression. Anyways I don’t know if that makes sense but it’s how I have come to understand and process, it can be so confusing.
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Yeah, sounds like we’re similar. My old psychiatrist, who actually knew me, called me a “rapid cycler.” Like, ridiculously rapid. From extreme lows to above normal, and back again, within hours. But never manic. I’ve seen manic, and that was never me. I’ve been on Lamictal, Lexapro (escitalopram) and Risperdal since 2002. I can handle life ok without the Lexapro or Risperdal, but take away my Lamictal and I’m an absolute mess. A suicidal, can’t get out of bed, mess.
I live my life manic it feels like. Or felt like, before lamictal anyway. I can still sense shifts, but they are hardly noticeable as anything but normal moods. I still ride high every day, though. I rarely dip into depressed. I am MEGA bitchy this week, though.
@Sober_Ninja and @anon59060877 My dad was full blown manic until I was about 15. It was hell to live with as a child. Then he swung into a depression, went to bed, and pretty much didn’t get up for a decade or two. They searched for the right meds forever. When they found Lamictal, he got out of bed, and has not returned to that horrible manic or depression since. He still can’t hold a job, but he does lots of little things for the church and such. He’s a stable, loving person now, totally different from what I grew up with. And so good with the grandchildren.
Lamictal is a life-saver.
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I take Risperdal it is really beneficial for me. More beneficial than the previous anti psychotics I’ve taken recently. Daffodil I thought of borderline personality disorder to when I saw BPD. My emotions/feelings are usually within three Happy, Sad, or Angry. For example, frustrated =angry, upset=sad, good =happy etc.
I think my dad takes lithium too. And I don’t know if he still does, but he used to be on maoi’s. He was on Prozac a long time ago, and it made him homicidal. So I was really scared to try it, but it didn’t do anything for me at all.
The search for the right meds can be long and hard, but it is worth it in the end.
Did Risperdal cause weight gain for you?