Hello! Figured I would start a new thread for this, since I turned my last thread into a daily journal type of thing.
So, its been a week.
I would say a good week…?
I really don’t pick up on anything negative from anybody in my life right now.
I have essentially corrected my sleep-cycle. I also rediscovered naps so thats been useful.
I have a couple of days coming up (after tomorrow) where I don’t have anything going on, and nothing I have to get done other than going over this paperwork some more.
I’m thinking of looking for a park and taking my chromebook up there, as it gets pretty sweet battery life.
I just wish I had a good friend to go with me places like the lake or the beach or out swimming, getting nails done together, stuff like that. I dont mind shopping alone, but certain things (like outdoors activities) I would rather not be alone, other than on a walk or whatever. ITs a bummer.
Oh! I started taking a probiotic about a week ago or two ago, I want to say its making a difference in my anxiety. We’ll see though and I’ll report on it in the future. If you have any experience, feel free to share.
Other then that, I had to run to the store earlier for some oragel for my tooth pain, I was almost in tears.
Basically I chipped my upper furthest back left molar a little while ago on some trail mix, and its been in pain ever since.
I have a routine of brushing, mouth wash, salt water rinse, aspirin, then just some sore-throat spray (was all I had. worked decent enough) I sprayed onto the tooth area. I didnt do that routine today though, and it hurt.
Whats bad about it is that the pain spreads all the way from the back molar, all the way to the front left tooth, and on the lower teeth as well (same side/area). Half of the left side of my face hurt as well as a dull headache in that area, before I put on the oragel. Like, it sounds worrying doesnt it? Anybody ever had it that bad or in that fashion?
Anyways… I never go to the dentist. I dont remember the last time i went. Hopefully I can find somewhere that’s affordable.
What do you guys think? Maybe just some antibiotics will do the trick? It feels like its got to be pulled and I’ve never had a tooth pulled, that I remember…ouch!!! what is it like?! This thing has got to go…
Anyways… I guess thats about it.
Im grateful that this time around being sober, that I’m actually serious about it.
This is the most serious I have ever been, if I’m honest.
In 2017 I was serious because I HAD to be. I would have drank if probation allowed it. I know myself, especially back then. At least when I was granted permission to go out of state for vacation, I would have drank.
In 2019 I was serious for awhile, I was so mad at myself. 2019 is when I was drinking vodka and ended up in the hospital 2 times.
And thats when I realized why vodka is the homeless alcoholic’s stereotypical drink of choice… And I didnt want to end up that way.
But now. Im 32 in a couple of weeks. My 30’s have been a waste of time so far. It just feels like right now is the BEST time to make this huge change. I wont ever have a future with alcohol in my life. I should know that by now.
It doesnt matter if I’m stone-cold sober 99% of the time. It still messes with my moods.
And that was one of the biggest lessons I’ve learned the past 2 years.
I know it sounds small, or possibly insignificant. But a bad attitude will definitely hold you back in life.
Alrighty well thats it. Thanks for reading.
Thanks for having me on this forum it keeps me writing, keeps me busy, and motivates me to stay sober.