# Eating disorder recovery check in thread (Trigger Warning)
**URL:** https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620
**Category:** Life in Recovery
**Tags:** eating-disorders
**Created:** [September 8, 2023, 2:14am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620 "2023-09-08T02:14:41Z")
**Posts on this page:** 20
**Page:** 2
### Author:  [@Dilettante](https://talkingsober.com/u/Dilettante)
#### Post date: [September 14, 2023, 11:03pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/23 "2023-09-14T23:03:12Z")
Checking in here.
I have had disordered eating since I was 14. Mainly b/p but periods of restriction as well. It has always been the pattern that either alcohol/drugs, or my ED, have been more prominent and this has cycled on and on over the years.
I am happy to say though, that 51 days into sobriety from alcohol, I have only had a handful of bad eating days. This is SUCH a huge change from my m.o.
I think what has helped is I’ve purposefully stopped tracking my calorie intake on my fitbit app. I recognise that this either encourages me to keep the numbers low, or gives me a f’ it mentality if I see the numbers are already above my comfort zone, so I’ll just inhale food and, well, you know.
I can’t say I’m feeling comfortable about food all the time, but I am practicing gratitude and meditation and I really think this is helping me to have a new appreciation for what I have, and is stopping me from getting into that dissociative state where I will b/p.
It is small steps, but I’m proud of myself and just wanted to share it here.
I hope everyone here is having a good day.
❤✌
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 15, 2023, 9:36pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/24 "2023-09-15T21:36:47Z")
One week no disordered eating 😄 super motivated to.keep this going. Hugs and good thoughts to everyone, stay strong 💪
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### Author:  [@Aleyadaisey](https://talkingsober.com/u/Aleyadaisey)
#### Post date: [September 16, 2023, 1:33am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/25 "2023-09-16T01:33:05Z")
Good job Jenny, keep it up! ☺
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### Author:  [@Scorpn](https://talkingsober.com/u/Scorpn)
#### Post date: [September 16, 2023, 7:00am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/26 "2023-09-16T07:00:48Z")
Yesterday and today I have been feeling the effects of having gluten.
And yet,
I seem to have just run towards it.
I had a grilled cheese sandwich yesterday, and some white castle sliders today.
😩
I have been giving in to cravings for “comfort food” or quick food, or “I don’t have energy to cook” food.
I am frustrated with myself for it. Tomorrow is another day to choose health over convenience… hopefully I can stick to rice and veggies
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 17, 2023, 11:45am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/27 "2023-09-17T11:45:59Z")
8 days disordered eating free, need to hit the shops today, so will be calling on my higher power to get me through temptations. Have a great day everyone 😀
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### Author:  [@Dilettante](https://talkingsober.com/u/Dilettante)
#### Post date: [September 17, 2023, 4:02pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/28 "2023-09-17T16:02:56Z")
Great work, well done on 1 week 🥳🥳🥳
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 17, 2023, 11:57pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/29 "2023-09-17T23:57:25Z")
Thank you!
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 18, 2023, 11:43pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/30 "2023-09-18T23:43:05Z")
So happy I made 10 days
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 19, 2023, 9:29pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/31 "2023-09-19T21:29:57Z")
Struggling a bit today. It’s so strange how your eyes can see one thing but you know in your logical brain it’s not true. Body dysmorphia sux! I am using all my tools today to remain present and sober. Hugs to all!
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### Author:  [@Mno](https://talkingsober.com/u/Mno)
#### Post date: [September 22, 2023, 11:34pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/32 "2023-09-22T23:34:35Z")
Congrats on 2 weeks!
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 23, 2023, 12:34am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/33 "2023-09-23T00:34:22Z")
Thank you so much!
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### Author:  [@Aleyadaisey](https://talkingsober.com/u/Aleyadaisey)
#### Post date: [September 23, 2023, 12:58am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/34 "2023-09-23T00:58:31Z")
Yes, congratulations on 2 weeks! That’s great, keep it up! ☺
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 23, 2023, 11:00am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/35 "2023-09-23T11:00:39Z")
Thank you!
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### Author:  [@Scorpn](https://talkingsober.com/u/Scorpn)
#### Post date: [September 23, 2023, 12:40pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/36 "2023-09-23T12:40:59Z")
Congratulations @Jenny1972 ❤
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 23, 2023, 3:09pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/37 "2023-09-23T15:09:26Z")
Thank you very much 😊
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 30, 2023, 12:44am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/38 "2023-09-30T00:44:37Z")
Forgot to post my 20 days, now at day 21, one day at a time ☺
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### Author:  [@Dilettante](https://talkingsober.com/u/Dilettante)
#### Post date: [September 30, 2023, 10:38am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/39 "2023-09-30T10:38:04Z")
Well done on 20+ days @Jenny1972 ,you’re doing do well 😊
❤✌
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### Author:  [@Dilettante](https://talkingsober.com/u/Dilettante)
#### Post date: [September 30, 2023, 10:45am UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/40 "2023-09-30T10:45:28Z")
I’m quite proud of myself as well.
I’m starting to notice my depression is upping its game right now. This is usually a trigger for my ED-dissociative eating, purging=unhealthy stress release coping mechanism.
Yesterday I ate a pasta dinner that mske me feel uncomfortably full, then my daughter made cookies and I had one on an already full stomach. I caught myself starting to get ready for a binge and took myself off to do a guided meditation. My brain calmed down (and my food stayed down). This was a real win for me that required attention, effort and using my sobriety tools.
I’m even going to have breakfast and lunch today I hope 🤞
❤✌
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [September 30, 2023, 10:31pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/41 "2023-09-30T22:31:23Z")
Thank you, and great job on your progress as well, we got this!!
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### Author:  [@Jenny1972](https://talkingsober.com/u/Jenny1972)
#### Post date: [October 8, 2023, 10:59pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eating-disorder-recovery-check-in-thread-trigger-warning/170620/42 "2023-10-08T22:59:08Z")
Back to day one, won’t give huge details here, not everyone in my support system agrees with me and thinks I’m being to hard on myself. I define my sobriety and for me, it was breaking my boundaries and definitions. So made it one day, I am strong, I will stay sober today. ODAAT
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