# EIDITED. My schizophrenic episode. this happened in real time. Im sorry i brought this even up. TW. Schizophrenia is a mental ilness and this thought is not real. Mind of a Schizophrenic
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**Created:** [March 31, 2026, 5:16pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148 "2026-03-31T17:16:19Z")
**Posts on this page:** 20
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 5:16pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/1 "2026-03-31T17:16:19Z")
If you were asked to stop cigarettes by your partner or loved one, do you think it would be worth it
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### Author:  [@Juli1](https://talkingsober.com/u/Juli1)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 5:29pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/3 "2026-03-31T17:29:58Z")
I cannot say as I do not smoke anymore since over 15 years. But if a guy would be high consumer… I guess I would ask him if the relationship has potential.
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### Author:  [@Madds](https://talkingsober.com/u/Madds)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 5:39pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/4 "2026-03-31T17:39:41Z")
I’ve never smoked but regarding drinking: my partner told me to stop or he was leaving, and I still continued to drink. I wasn’t ready to stop and I’m not proud to say that I didn’t. Not until I had absolutely had enough of myself and was ready for change.
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 5:44pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/5 "2026-03-31T17:44:14Z")
I quit for my boy 🙂 i didnt know i could do it till i did it
Now they are nothing but a thought in the wind
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 5:44pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/6 "2026-03-31T17:44:55Z")
If your taught something is good, is it truly good
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 5:45pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/7 "2026-03-31T17:45:45Z")
Im not singling you out . You do a lot here
But ciggs are bad for you my good friend
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 5:50pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/8 "2026-03-31T17:50:18Z")
Which also gets me thinking which seems to be the day here
It doesnt take a good teacher
It takes a good person
To learn right from wrong
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### Author:  [@Mno](https://talkingsober.com/u/Mno)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:04pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/9 "2026-03-31T18:04:31Z")
My then bestie mocked me and her then boyfriend one afternoon, sitting at her kitchen table. “You both can’t quit smoking. You’re weak boys!” That was 3838 days ago today. My quit survived our friendship. Never again.
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:05pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/10 "2026-03-31T18:05:52Z")
Im sorry to hear about your friend
Id like to hear more
I hope shes ok
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### Author:  [@Alexh666](https://talkingsober.com/u/Alexh666)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:07pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/11 "2026-03-31T18:07:56Z")
Would it be worth it? Sure. Would it be enough to stop someone from smoking? Maybe? I suppose it depends on the person, as well as a lot of other factors. It certainly wasn’t enough for me. My mom and brother begged me to quit for years, but I didn’t quit until I was willing like @AgentUkulele mentioned.
Despite all the negative consequences, which I was well aware of, I smoked for 16 years. Eventually I came to the realization that nicotine was essentially a gateway to my addictive thought patterns, and if I cut it out of my life maybe I wouldn’t have as many urges and craving for other substances. I’m now convinced that having no mind altering substances in my bloodstream is the only way I’ll be able to live a decent life.
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### Author:  [@Mno](https://talkingsober.com/u/Mno)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:09pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/12 "2026-03-31T18:09:51Z")
I hope she’s OK too. We haven’t spoken for a couple of years now. We were both damaged in our youths. We survived in our own ways. I went into therapy and became sober. And changed. I guess we both changed. We grew apart. Still love her and miss her but I’m not how and what I was then.
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:11pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/13 "2026-03-31T18:11:57Z")
What were you negative thinking patterns. This i may relate to very good.
Mine are that noises in my head get loud but insted of fighting it, i go with it. I also understand right from wrong and my own thinking habbiits. I almost know i can hear something real in my hounest to god truth
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:13pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/14 "2026-03-31T18:13:35Z")
But my sanity grips to reality by my thought experiments in my public setting lol
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:14pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/15 "2026-03-31T18:14:56Z")
In words of drs im a schizophrenic but to me its so real
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:17pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/16 "2026-03-31T18:17:24Z")
I call the noises thoughts and let them go
And i believe if anyone was mad at me for being the way i am they are wrong because i believe im good and would never hurt a sole. I feel.like if i could break through id like to be the one to do it
I believe technology is further then we truly know
I dont believe im phycic
I think.it was something that was invented, being able to make noises in my head
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:19pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/17 "2026-03-31T18:19:22Z")
But how does a schizophrenic even prove their mental illness is real
Which mine is not from the out comes i do amd test in my public setting
Its like im schizophrenic without fear
100%
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### Author:  [@Alexh666](https://talkingsober.com/u/Alexh666)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:19pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/18 "2026-03-31T18:19:56Z")
The classics were “I need more x”, “I’m willing to do anything to get y” and “z will make me feel better”. Insert any substance for xyz and those thoughts still remained true for me.
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:23pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/19 "2026-03-31T18:23:09Z")
I was even told of list of rules in my head which included, if i say the hallucinations it becomes real,
This is NOT TRUE
other schizophrenics may believe they heard tge same but thats our human phycology in our schizophrenia
Everyone is different but it takes one bad egg to control a generation
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### Author:  [@Noshame](https://talkingsober.com/u/Noshame)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:24pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/20 "2026-03-31T18:24:13Z")
Lol im changing the name of this thred
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### Author:  [@Alexh666](https://talkingsober.com/u/Alexh666)
#### Post date: [March 31, 2026, 6:25pm UTC](https://talkingsober.com/t/eidited-my-schizophrenic-episode-this-happened-in-real-time-im-sorry-i-brought-this-even-up-tw-schizophrenia-is-a-mental-ilness-and-this-thought-is-not-real-mind-of-a-schizophrenic/206148/21 "2026-03-31T18:25:14Z")
I see my thoughts as leaves in a never ending, unstoppable river. They come, I’m witness to them, and then they go, some quicker than others. Like you said, you just have to go with it and then let them go!
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