I was comparing my life as an active addict vs my life in recovery…
I was looking at how much I was spending on alcohol, drugs, and cigarettes when I was using versus now that I’m clean and sober.
I was spending roughly $2,075 a month on my addictions and $300 eating crappy food out. Now I use that $300 to buy groceries and cook at home with my husband, pack leftovers to take to work.
I was not sleeping through the night, often times sweating (withdrawals over and over) I was always tired.
Now I get quality sleep and quality quiet time to read. My energy is coming back.
My big “secret” was my various addictions that I was ashamed of.
Now, I love adult coloring books, dove chocolates with the messages inside, and laughing my ass off. I don’t care who knows.
I hated myself, my addictions, and who/what I’d become. I lived in a state of anxiety and depression. (this was my normal)
Now, I’m learning self-care isn’t selfish, and it’s okay to smile and be happy with the everyday little things (cup of coffee, waking up early sober, spending time with loved ones, reading a book and going to bed early on the weekend)
What are your truths?