Yes it sure canā¦ 
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Iām a liar, I wake up every morning and put my lieing face on, it has a lieing smile and it has those lieing eyes. It sees the world the way it wants to see it and not how it probably is. I lie that my past didnāt matter and I lie that my future will be better, I lie that I love, I lie that I care, I lie that Iām happy sober and I lie that Iām happier without drugs, I lie about lieing, Iām so good at it I donāt even know what is a lie or a truth anymore. I lie about who I am, the part of me writing this is not the whole me, Iām just a mangled up mess of parts sown together to make a person with so many holes that I couldnāt hold on to the truth if I tried. Iām incomplete.
Though for all the lies I do have a belief, it doesnāt have to be a lie or a truth, I donāt even have to be sure itās even possible. I just have to believe that one day Iām going to be happy. Thatās all I want.
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You got that right and they will devour you if they canā¦ I almost feel like Iām expected to lie or hide my flaws just so people will think Iām more than I truly amā¦ I canāt be that person even though common sense for me probably should kick in and reconsider showing my faceā¦ Why do thingās that might come back to bite me in the ass later??? Well the same reason I stepped away from that drugā¦ It changed meā¦ I had to lieā¦ I wasnāt alright with thatā¦ I aināt alright with a lot of thingās that just flows by in my lifeā¦ But if it is my actionsā¦ Iām gonna be truthfully accountableā¦ I aināt trying to fool me, I already did that 
ā¦ I might just be getting too old to care what people think unless those people are riding with meā¦
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You are a very considerate human!!!
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I agree with everything you just said! Honesty relieves us of so much; and you soon find out who your friends really are. I used to try to fit in when I was younger; Iām that old lady that doesnāt care what you think of me! ā¦
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To be completely honest with you I wake up every day of my life angry and it takes me a good 15-30 minutes to remember who I am, what my purpose is and to develop a daily plan to be just a little better than yesterdayā¦ After that Iām typically good without ruining my day or even worse, somebody elseāsā¦ I donāt think thatās lying on my part or yours Brotherā¦ I think weāre just tryingā¦ I noticed your name is Paulā¦ I remember a man named Paul from a book when I was a child, even though Iām not familiar with the man himself or the entire storyā¦ Iām usually better with faces than names but you know what I do when I feel like God or one of his people is trying to tell me something??? I research and educate myselfā¦ Guess what I think I just learned (without trying too hard to lean on my own understanding and falling flat on my face)ā¦ ~We walk by faith not by sight~ 
ā¦ You know who said that??? A man named Paulā¦ 
Pride can be a bad thing if itās acted out in in angerā¦
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Thatās the way I see it too!
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I donāt normally do posts like that but Iām feeling it a bit today, plus just finished the series of something I had been watching for ages and it made me look at myself a little. Iāve only recently found my god and without him I would be nothing right now, any other time in my life I would have turned to drink and drugs by now but I have a strength that is not mine keeping me sober, I have a person who has come to me for help and it can only be done sober, I pray daily now and Iām sober daily. Even in this darkness I still just about see light. its all I have to hold onto. Its not easy but itās working out so far.
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Thatās so true, Iām severely partially sighted , faith is all I have.
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I write poetry and text on Instagram, also on recovery. the account is not with my name on it but I do share the posts in my FB story so all my connections on there know. Social and business wise.
I am a better man then I ever was before.
They will see that anyways
My journey might influence someone for the better.
have lost only 1 relationship to sobriety which I cared about.
#onthesoapbox
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Same here Donnaā¦ 
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Lord help usā¦
I always used to
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Thatās awesome and extremely braveā¦ I keep thinking that I might try step back out into the social media world again someday but honestly I already know as of right now Iām unableā¦ I think Iām afraid their comments, memes etc will turn me back into the defensive, retaliating fool that I know I can be when Iām hurtā¦ I didnāt like her much neitherā¦ So Iām gonna have to wait until Iām strong enough to do thatā¦ I think we must all just go through a process that gets us back to where we need to beā¦ Iām gonna give it more timeā¦ But heck yeah, thatās awesome!
I love the word USED to on thatā¦ And welcome to the communityā¦ It said that was your first time postingā¦ Iām glad youāre hereā¦
This is one of the best posts Iāve read.
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Not sure if anyone already mentioned this, but my only concern is automated webcrawlers that can be used to tie photos to social media across platforms. They can get pretty sophisticated and can dig up a lot on a person without much to go on and with no (or very little) human intervention. Personally, I wouldnāt be surprised if a sobriety forum is seen as a valuable target due to the openness and vulnerability of many of us here. But regardless, I just assume that any social media site that doesnāt require an account of some sort to view the content is likely being mined, at least by spammers, maybe worse.
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Absolute truthā¦
Plus, Iām not sure everyone is aware of just how much metadata is often stored in a digital photoā¦
Welpā¦now Iām sufficiently paranoid to swap out my avatar!
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