Feeling moody

I’ve been feeling better lately, but today has been particularly difficult for me. My mom has been supportive and I had her put a lock on my phone. Still, this is all really hard.

Recently I came out as gay and yesterday someone said something super homophobic and it set me off. It was difficult not to lean onto porn, so today I am moody, I’m even annoyed with my best friend and I never get annoyed with him.

I’m trying to find a better way to deal with all this shit, I used to write but everytime I pick up a pen It feels like a million pounds in my hand and I suddenly can’t breathe.

I’m going to pick up reading again maybe, it’ll be better than always wanting to be on my phone. Sorry if what I’m trying to say is a jumble of confused stuff, I’m all over the place right now.