Feelings of discouragement while restoring your streak

Is it normal to feel that after you have regressed to watching porn that your current progress is somehow unnaceptable because you struggle with desires for it?

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@RX24
@DuncanNZ
@DungeonMaster
@MikeSeekingHope
@KevinesKay

Are just a few that share your affliction.

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Thank you so much Gabe. For some reason, it helps to know that others are going through the same struggle

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I look at it like, even if we fall. We keep trying. Having the desire to quit helps sooner or later we find away to help us along the journey. I rather be on day 45, day 1 for me are the worst.

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I’m 150+ ish days no sex no PMO. For me if I watched porn it would be a huge red flag. I find online there’s lots of truggers and no ones perfect but keep trying and you can grow. Change your subconscious with your thoughts and actions and over time you will slowly but surely see and feel change.

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For me, I’ve had to learn to be more kind to myself. My tendency is to beat myself up for not doing a perfect program. And although I work to say , “No,” to that first look of lust, that first thought, or the first desire to act out, I don’t often succeed at doing it right every single day.

I crave a lot. But it doesn’t mean that I don’t give myself credit for avoiding the porn, or the masturbation, or the other forms of sexual acting out. I have to stop being so hard on myself for still having desires, do the best I can, and allow recovery to take it’s full course without allowing unhealthy shame leading me back to relapse.

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That is very true RX24! I was thinking about this in relation to mastering anything. We often don’t see the progress immediately. It takes time . It’s through patience and perseverance that we really grow

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Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your brokeness and your path to healing. It’s really encouraging for me to hear that more than you might realize. I was so tempted now after work to look at porn. I instead remembered your message and it put my earphones on to listen to Gospel Music. Praise Jesus.

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Yes! That is a powerful truth. Not just avoiding what is bad, but changing the way you think about life and things by what you think about. Thanks buddy . Hope you still keeping strong

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Thanks Gabe!

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Just 1.65 days to go until 3 days free. It’s not easy to get up when you fall down, but one thing is for sure, bruised knees are not broken legs.

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You are very welcome!
Thank you for sharing

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Sober as yesterday my man.