So, about 3 months I decided to go cold turkey - it was extremely difficult especially as I had chosen to do it around Christmas and new year! (What a fool!) temptation was CRAZY! but !!! I didn’t have a drink for 5 weeks!!!
I was so proud of myself - however, I relapsed at my brothers 30th. I told myself I wasn’t going to drink so I drove…I ended up drinking which then led to me drunk driving home.
Anyway since then it was always “I’ll start again”
I was sober for 3 weeks and then I relapsed big time. I don’t know how I survived after drinking the amount I did that night…half of it is a blur. And because of it all my responsibilities went out the window - I was supposed to be working a night shift that night however I went out for lunch with my brother - had a sip of wine and that was it.
I keep proving to myself time and time again why I shouldn’t drink. So why do I keep going back?!?!?!?!!?!
I have given up again (surprise surprise) but this time I want to be absolutely strict with myself and sure that I will do it. I cannot do moderation. I need to quit for good!!!