Hi everybody!
I’m alcohol and drug addicted with one year and eight monthes of a clean time.
Firstly I please you to embrace my awful english as it is, cose I’m not a native speaker.
Anyway, this community is been helping me to get away from great emotional crysis last few days.
Not enough inner power were to order myself get out from my apartments and carry myself to the meeting. Pain was within, also emptiness and lonelyness. A complete kit! Didn’t want to talk with nobody. So I got to self isolation. There were only my thoughts, myself and my cellphone with internet access. At the same tame trying to stop smoking (brilliant idea while depressed) i was looking for sober time counter app. Randomely I found out an app together with sober community and started to read posts and comments. While reading, my inner state was becoming better.
Now I feel much better and I want to give a huge thank to all of you. And now it seems to me, if not this app and comunity…
One day a said to myself: I don’t want to use again. I don’t want to turn out in that nightmare again, don’t want to go through rehab again. I tired for all of that. It will be better to end up with this life.
This conviction is still actual for me in case of emergency.
But now I’m typing this text that meens I’m alive. I want to keep going.
At yesterdey eavening I could get to the meeting and to share about most of my problems at last. I could share some my experience too.
Now I’l glad to share my experience at this community, I’l glad to be helpful for enyone.
I want to tell a story of mine but later, cose this day was rather hard for my broken mind and I feel so sleepy and tired. I’ve only written the most important for today.
So many things took place in my life this year and eight monthes. A bad ones and a good ones.
A pain still within, but a bit less.
At this moment I think that good ones were more though.