Something stole my sunshine today and I’m so mad at myself for allowing that to happen. I think back on my harsh life. I’ve endured an alcoholic father, homelessness, poverty, foster homes, divorce, an overdose and a brutal assault by a stranger that left me with terrible injury. Each bad decision and hardship, God brought me through. Why would I think he would turn from me now? How could I think that after all the favor he has shown me? I’m going to overcome. I am ready to claim my favor. Ty for reading.
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@Wally care to share what stole your sunshine? Telling us about it might help 
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Well, I feel like I’m under financial strain. Seems like no matter how much I work, I can’t get ahead. My heat unit is going out. Kicks on constantly and I just was recovering from the last blow. I’m getting a bonus from work and instead of paying a debt like i was looking forward to doing, I have to buy a unit. Totally ruined my day. I just sat there all day with the sun shining and brooding. Plus, I’ve been feeling down ever since I drank last four days ago. I just don’t know what it is exactly. Maybe I need medication to help me cope with normal life challenges. Or maybe i just need a swift kick. I know I have a lot to be thankful for.
That’s life. Sometimes things go wrong and it’s totally out of your control.
If stressful events like those happen, I ask myself if it will matter in 5 years. The heat unit is setting you back financially, but in 5 years you will have probably forgotten about it. Or at the very least recovered financially.
Your sobriety on the other hand will matter in 5 years. So hang on to that!
Remind yourself of the bigger picture. You’re living and that’s awesome.
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Your still detoxing for one thing, so I wouldn’t be surprised if your emotions are going haywire.
As for the heat unit, don’t sweat it outright until you have someone look at it. For all you know it could be a quick and cheap fix like a thermostat. Don’t get worked up for no reason.
As for God, what I’ve found is that he gives you challenges in life, and your faith in God is how you react and handle those situations. Sometimes you have to be dragged through the mud to reach the ivory palace.
I too have been struggling financially for the past 5-6 years. And before that money wasn’t an issue…it was flowing. Life was abundant But Earthly standards. But here is a great quote:
"The world asks, “What does a man have?” Jesus asks, “What does he do with it.”
Sometimes God let’s situations in our lives play themselves out to see how we’ll respond. He hears our prayers but what if we aren’t ready to receive his gifts. Whenever I get in that funk where I wonder when I will catch a financial break I often ask myself:
“Am I waiting on God…Or is HE waiting on me?”
If have a few moments today open up your Bible and read the first few lines in the Book of James 1:2-8.
May God Bless you. Ask for His spiritual gifts and the natural ones will follow.
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Ty so much. I’ll do that.
Very true. Ty.i ts not a cheap fix but I’ll recover. I will have a bonus to pay for it. I should be thankful I can get it fixed.
I’m at 6 days and 5 hrs. I’m alive. That’s a big deal with all I’ve been through. Was close to death twice. I should be on cloud nine. Ty for your input.
Congrats on making it this far! Take it one day at a time. Eventually you’ll find your pink cloud…
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