I made it about 11 days trying to mainly keep it to myself and it didnt get me far so her goes nothing.
I trying to get clean off c*ke.(if you know a good N/A support group or app please link.)
I started using Jan 26. 2023 with an old friend from high-school and it became a pretty regular within the following weeks. When i realized that using was creeping in my thoughts more and more i realized it was becoming an issue. Blocked said friend and told a my dad and made a small group of accountability buddies to talk to. But I realized how much it was gonna come up and sensed judgment or hearing a repeated speech and just started to get old
So i kept those thoughts and urges to use myself until i had an opportunity and took it the other night without letting know I relapsed. Then today another opportunity to buy so I try to casually jump on it even though I was with my boyfriend. The guy pulled it out though and my boyfriend was like wtf is that ? We dont do hard stuff. Then turned to me and asked “Right”? He was obviously suspicious after and notice he had a 20 in his hand asked if I gave it to him and bought some that’s if I’ve been using in rapid fire and i just denied everything in the heat of the moment. Not the best mood to make. I know being honest with everyone would be a good start i dont wanna disappoint them…
Planning on going to an actual meeting soon.
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Getting honest is a great first step.
Here’s a link to in person meetings:
https://www.na.org/meetingsearch/
Here’s a link to online meetings online.
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That is a life changing step. Go! Go again and keep going.
Get active here. Read as much as you can daily…and participate…
Those 2 things changed my life fundamentally
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Congratulations on reaching out for help! Sounds like you are on the right path. I just have to say, from what I am hearing, not only could this be a horrible habit to get into, stuff is laced with fentanyl now, and one little bit could end your life right there, good luck, keep coming back! You can do it!