First AA meeting today. I don’t think I’ve ever been so f**king terrified in my life. But I did it. I’m so proud of myself. That was extemely difficult and I’m so glad I conquered another step in this new life.
I’m completely new at this, but wanted to reach out to anyone scared to go like I was. This group was so welcoming and amazing. Several people introduced themselves after. I got through a short share without crying (somehow), and I am so grateful for those who have gone before me. A man shared with 31 years sobriety and I was floored and inspired. I loved it and will be back tomorrow.
5 days today. I love this community and I am so thankful to get to share my journey with you.
I went to a meeting in the spring, terrified but desperate! They were very kind and welcoming…I cried the entire way through, partially because I couldn’t believe I had come to this. But I left thinking I’m not like these people: I can’t just not drink, I don’t have that superpower!!! So I told myself the lie that I could learn to control myself. Well that didn’t work and I downloaded the Big Book and started reading. While continuing to get loaded every day/night…I have been worse than ever before these past few months. Today is day 1 and I feel more determined than ever! But I realize now that I may have to crawl back to a meeting, I feel so ashamed that these people really showed me incredible kindness and I abandoned them without an explaination. But I’m starting to realize through my readings that I will be once again accepted and welcomed back, that’s what it’s all about.
Thanks for sharing and allowing me to do the same, blessings!!
I crawled back to my “home group” meeting that I was with for years before I relapsed. They took me back with open arms.
Some of the best people you’ll ever meet that undestand what you’re going through. As you go to more and more meetings, it will get easier. (They have no reason to judge) Look for similarities and not differences. Put willingness into working the steps and the rest will come together.
My downfall? I forgot I had an illness, quit going to meetings, and thought i could drink like normal people.