First day today… I woke up this morning and said I was done after getting absolutely wasted last night and then called my mom. I wasn’t ugly or rude to her I was just being loud and annoying and slurring my words and she could tell and I was so embarassed.
I’ve been drinking pretty much daily since covid started and I even lost a job because of it, yet that wasn’t a wake up call at the time.
I’m scared I’m going to socialize and say “one won’t hurt” but it never stops at one.
I’m tired of feeling like crap and feeling depressed. I’m embarassed at how I’ve acted this past year. I have a wife and two kids and I want to be better for them. But I think this time is different because I finally want to do it for me.
I love super hero movies and shows and often times my favorite characters have drinks in their hand or use alcohol to cope with trauma (I relate to these characters and I admire them because they are often survivors and strong) and I’m worried watching my favorite shows and movies will tempt me but they are a big part of what I like to do in my free time. Does anyone else struggle with this?
I’m nervous and hungover, but im ready to feel better and do better.