First day went well

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I have to say that this first day went better this time rather than last. I guess without the withdrawal symptoms and all. I still did have that stupid little voice trying to convince me that I wanted a drink…telling me that complete abstinence was stupid and that really what I wanted was to be a “normal” drinker. I just need that other voice to be louder, the one that says “I can’t do that”.

So, on day 2. I still hate seeing the small numbers again…but it is what it is. That seems to be my new mantra.

Oh, and I chose a “sober anchor”. I was thinking I wanted something that reminded me of my mother and what she went through as alcohol killed her AND something that reminded me of my daughters and why I am doing this. Ultimately I plan to get a locket with a photo of my mom on one side and a photo of them daughters on the other. But in the meantime I have two beaded rafiki bracelets. One that is multicoloured to represent my mom, and one that is pink to represent my daughters.

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You sound full of strength right now! I know it doesn’t always feel that way but hold tight to your “anchors” and keep going! You’ve got this :anchor:

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A “sober anchor” is a great thing. Something physical to hold onto! I have that same voice in my head “I could just pop for a couple”. Have to keep screaming at the voice “that never ends well and you know it, so be quiet!”

Stay strong! We can do this.

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Same here. Like the little angel on one shoulder and the little devil on the other!

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That’s me exactly! Grrr

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That’s great, @VSue! I am rooting for you. it definitely feels easier for me this time around, too. I relapsed on day 67, though, so we will see how I feel around then. I’m at 33 days today. Good job coming back here and getting right back to it! :blush: