So I’ve been off work for 3 weeks and tonight is my first night back. I went on sick due to personal struggles, also the plain and simple reason is that I was drinking and I couldn’t go to work in that way, I was in a vicious cycle. But I am so far 3 day sober!
I rang work yesterday and spoke to my manager saying I wanted to be put on nights (i told her it was for personal reasons I don’t want them to know about my addiction) she agreed and was more accommodating to my needs than I thought she would be. I do feel I’ll find it easier on nights as my mind will be focused on work rather than alcohol. I do hope it helps any way.
I’m quite nervous and scared to go back because of the constant “oh hope you’re feeling better” “why was you on sick?” ect… I don’t feel comfortable talking about my addiction (yet) and they obviously don’t understand that actually, no, I’m not better and every day is a struggle and I’m having to fight with my demons every waking minute (I know they are asking out of kindness and obviously to be nosey we are all human after all)
But on a positive note, in a way, I am looking forward to work and getting back to basics and getting back into real life. I feel this is a step in the right direction for recovery and getting my life back together.
A routine can be very good and healthy for you. I think it’s a good idea to do the night shift. It will give you an easy way out if you ever want to avoid parties where the temptation will be too strong.
@Nicolle I can really relate to this post I have been drinking every morning for like a month and kinda gave up on recovery but I just had like 10 day leave of absence because I can’t work when I’m so emotional and foggy at work dying of a socially unacceptable disease.
I go back to work Friday and have to deal with the same “are you feeling better” and silent judgment that ( she’s not really sick she’s lazy) but honestly if its my job or my life all I can do is show up, suit up, and stay sober. I’m not even to 12 hours yet on attempt # 6,457 (I’m guessing lol)
But we can’t stop trying