Hi everyone. Today I decided enough was enough, I’m done drinking, and somehow stumbled onto this site. I figured one of the first things I should do is write down all the misery alcohol has caused in my life, write it all down and take a good look at myself before making some serious changes, so here we go…deep breath
A letter to myself
Dear Sally,
Remember that night you were driving on the wrong side of the road? You could have killed someone, you could have killed yourself, what would Lyla do if you never came home?
Can you recall all the nights you black out before 6PM, all the nights you cant remember putting lyla to sleep? All the nights you bath your daughter so blacked out drunk, you can’t even remember if you fed her dinner. Do you even know how many times lyla cries for you at night and you cant hear the baby monitor because you’ve passed out from drinking.
Can you recall all the embarrassing things you’ve done while intoxicated? Remember when you fell down that flight of stairs?
Remember when you ran out of beer, because 6 or 10 or however much just wasnt enough? So you left your daughter home alone sleeping in her crib and drove “right down the road” to the gas station for more?
Remember how it feels, those rare mornings when you wake up and didn’t drink yourself into a coma the night before? When you actually wake up feeling good, instead of trying to survive the mornings predictable hangover.
Do you remember all the days you’ve called off work, knowing you need the money, because you’re too hungover to wake up.
Remember how you become a slut when you drink? Remember that amazing man that loves you that you forget to be faithful to when you black out from all the alcohol? Remember thinking “I would never have done that if I were sober”…you should be ashamed. And you are.
Remember all the hard earned money you blow on beer every. Single. Day.
Try to remember the life you can’t recall living because you were too drunk.
You are better than this. You could type out all the reasons why you drink but we both know ultimately they are excuses and that you have a problem.
You have a problem. You are an alcoholic and you’ve done things under the influence of alcohol that you would NEVER do sober. It’s time to change. Today is the day. You are DONE.
