Today I have reached a scared point. Finally admitting that I have an addictive personality. It’s been realization from food positioning and my addiction to alcohol. Finally need to make myself responsible. I don’t want to end up with others talking about me or seeing hurt in their eyes. Today my mom gave me a look that scared me. What am I doing? I know I’m good and once again. My life has to change for myself. To better improve myself. Addiction is greedy and selfish. For once I am crying for myself inside. Stupid how our reality crashes on us and where we are.
Today I do this for me