I am 31 years old and I have been struggling with drugs and alcohol addiction on and off for 18 years. This last time I got clean, I stayed clean for almost 4 years. But then out of nowhere I started smoking meth again and within 2 weeks of relapsing I picked up shooting for the first time and I have been struggling with that everyday for a year and a half now. Every other time I have quit using I never have reached out for help. I just deal with it alone and quit cold turkey. I strongly believe that that is why I keep relapsing. And I definitely need all the help I can get this time because this time feels different… I feel like I am being held hostage. For the first time in my life I feel so weak and helpless and empty. Today is my Day 1.
Hi Amanda, welcome. This is a great supportive place where people help each other on their journey. Congratulations on making the first, and in some ways hardest step - starting! Stick with it from here. You got this. And you have ears here to listen and friends to share advice. Good luck on your journey!
Welcome. I’m sorry you’ve had a rough go, that many on here can relate and although you may feel helpless, you have at your fingertips a whole community of helpful people wanting to see you thrive!
The first few days are the hardest and what helped me was posting, reading other posts, checking in on the message board to prevent relapse etc.
Our greatest strengths are often sprouted from weakness, we just have to water that sprout and protect it from being squashed before it can grow into the mighty trunk which all your new sober dreams will grow!
(Hug)
Take care of your garden! We are here if you need backup!
http://talkingsober.com/t/the-sobriety-garden/4316?source_topic_id=4658Try to get to a meeting it makes it easier ,it’s hard trying yourself without support so best of luck. It’s hard in the beginning but it does get better.