Hi, my name is Nathan.
Well first thing first, I’d like to apologize for the grammar errors that could be happening in this text bc English isn’t my first language.
However, tomorrow is my first week free of pot.
I started to smoke weed when i was 16, next week I’m gonna turn 27y.
Last weekend I invited some friends to spend some time together at my house, two of those friends still smoking a lot, I didn’t prohibit they to smoke here and it wasn’t hard to say no, I was kinda proud of my self.
This isn’t my first time trying to kick off the weed, last year i tried to stop two times but either of those times i wasn’t strong enough to pass trough the second day.
I promised to my self that 2023 has to be different, I wasn’t thinking to stop completely, don’t get me wrong but I really enjoy to smoke. But the way i was going wasn’t recreational or even healthy.
So I decided to quit drastically, I know that I can’t do it gradually bc I already tried several times and never worked.
I think the first five days was kinda easy to keep going but today was for sure the hardest day to complete.
I woke up and felt something was missing, i missed the morning ritual of waking up and roll a joint and drink some coffe.
As i said, my friends came to visit me last week and I allowed they to use my old grinder, i didnt smoke with them but this morning I thought a lot about bc they used my old grinder and I found some weed dust inside the grinder and it was SO F HARD to resist.
I almost went out to buy some paper and tabacco to mix everything together inside the grinder…
I was so anxious and even now o felt kinda grumpy.
I went of to the gym and i think it helps a little bit.
I’m gonna clean the grinder and probably will hide it from my self.
I’m trying to keep my mind busy, I don’t want to do anything that I’ll probably regret.
Anyone has some advice to keep going?
I read some topics of ppl saying the first 3 days can be the hardest, but for me i think it was the easiest, the hardest has been rn.