Friday night - what's up

[wharfrat]

Good for you. Im trying to rewatch seasons 6 and 7 of GoT before sunday night. Couch=good.

[anon12657779]

Ah Goat, now your bringing in the way the wooden spoons resonate when knocked against the thigh, as opposed to the common garden metal ones. I too prefer the deeper sound.
I’ve always been partial to a bit if base

[TMAC]

Thanks this is an old friend who I have not seen in 5 or 6 years. We reconnected about a year ago, but plans have always fizzled out.

I’ve resolved that I am going to stick this out and not be a flake. No complaints if the cancellation comes from his side though

[TMAC]

aaaaaand my friend cancelled. Rescheduled for next Friday.

See you with the same anxieties, same time, next week!

[siand]

Ah what a shame (I know you will probably be thinking otherwise ) Hope it does happen next week, it’s awesome that you’re putting yourself outside of your comfort zone!

[TMAC]

Thanks, I am trying. But can’t deny I was somewhat relieved to have the plans cancelled. My default mindset it always “the best plans are cancelled ones”. I can’t hide myself away forever, though. I deserve more than that.

[siand]

Haha the best plans are cancelled ones Like it.

But yes you certainly do deserve more and it’s amazing that you’re trying to make that happen.

[Kris10af1]

If i can get up and feel up to it going to go to church with my dad for euchre night!

[TMAC]

Well, I just made my own day.

I got tickets to go see Morrissey. Only thing is, I’ll have to drive to NYC for it. I’ve been debating it since yesterday when they went on sale. The only other time I’ve seen him was in 2016, also made the drive to New York for that one, too (had tix to a Boston show in 2017, got cancelled). It’ll be a quick 24hr trip like last time. I’ll be doing this solo, GF staying home.

I think back and 2016 is one of the best years of my life – a lot of that is because I went out and did stuff, put myself out there, instead of overthinking it to death to the point where the idea eventually becomes stressful and unappealing. So I am hoping this will be part of a great 2019.

The motto of 2019 will be – just go for it!

[TMAC]

Thanks, I’m just glad I made a decision lol. So much humming and hawing over it…do I really want to drive all the way to NY, do I really want to spend that cash, etc etc.

I kept saying, “just wait 'til next time, see if he comes to Boston”. But there is never a guarantee of a “next time”, is there.

[aircircle]

I can’t hide myself away forever, though. I deserve more than that.

You are correct. Also, @MandiH and i will come find you for summer new England meet up

[TMAC]

I still feel kind of uneasy, truthfully, haha. Excited, but uneasy.

I always feel guilty about spending money, it’s been that way as long as I can remember. Drilled into me since I was a kid, really. It’s helpful in terms of budgeting and saving, but it also means I feel bad when I spend on something like this.

Additionally, the last time I saw Morrissey in NY, it was about 3 months after getting my own adderall prescription…so I was in the stage where I was very much enjoying it, but it hadn’t blown up into a problem quite yet. I spent the afternoon leading up to the show doing that stuff and sipping bourbon (still “moderate” drinking back then, right…). I wasn’t hammered, but I was definitely flying high.

I’m not nervous about relapsing. No way. Wouldn’t have booked it if I had that concern – But putting things in motion for this time around has some of those memories of last time coming up. It’s making me feel like I actually miss it. I know the reality, though. As much as I might sometimes wish I could do those things, I’ve made my choice and I know that it’s simply not an option for me anymore.

[TMAC]

Thanks, glad to know it’s not a totally bizarre feeling. I wrestle with it sometimes. There was a very small window of time in my life back then where I was able to enjoy alcohol without the inevitable harsh hangover and brutal “hangxiety” that lasts for days afterward, my primary reasons for stopping. I’m not sure why, the negative effects just…went away for a while.
But, of course, they came back – worse, actually. That’s what I keep in the back of my mind now. Last time I drank/drugged (June 9), I was in shambles for nearly 2 weeks. It was awful and I never want any part of that again. Sometimes I think I could recapture that old time, but alas, I know that to be bullshit. So this time will be different. No sense in worrying about it now, this is 5 months away.

Sobriety really is about learning what to do with ALL emotions, not just the bad ones, isn’t it? I, like you, haven’t much of an idea of what to do with the good emotions when they show up. It’s like being handed a batch of delicious food, but the pan it’s in is scalding hot…hooray, delicious food! But I can’t grasp it!

I also found it humorous that your moment of bliss came to you while in the pasta aisle. I mean, who doesn’t get a little giddy when surrounded by tortellini?

Thanks for your kind words my friend, they have helped me today.

[aircircle]

FRIDAY! LONG WEEKEND! HIGH 60s(F) TOMORROW!

That’s what’s up.

[MoCatt]

So much humming and hawing over it…do I really want to drive all the way to NY, do I really want to spend that cash, etc etc.

Hell yes, you do!

[MoCatt]

Sitting here watching a plumber mutter and shake his head - after finding standing water earlier today in my basement and downstairs bathroom. Sigh…

[aircircle]

Oh no! Sorry to hear that, Holly.

[Don_S]

Planning to hit a meeting, relax & sleep. I have to work tomorrow. I’ll do my best to alert, present & productive.

[MandiH]

Oh no!! I do not love when things go wrong with the pipes, that’s one of the few home issues that really stresses me out! That and water issues, have both this month lol. Plumbers are def saints when needed! I hope they get you fixed up quick!

[anon44659383]

Pizza with PINEAPPLE, La Croix and some tv.