Fuck self pity

Today woke up clean sober. No hangover or regrets, but then it happened i started feeling sorry for myself. The the truth i started feeling bad because i was feeling good, saying things like why couldn’t i be sober like this all mylife, my son deserves a better dad, all i do is destroy the hopes and dreams of other-even why should i be proud of myself because im living rather then dyiny"really isn’t that what people do". Well after kicking the shit out of myself for 20min i realized that was my addiction talking/withdrawal and once i got off yhe pity pot i came to the conclusion that i am fucking proud, i am excited to see what today will bring, look forward to the meeting at 1, also very very proud of being a father. So fuck self pity…I love myself and God gift.

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Ahhh, the dreaded ‘you don’t deserve sobriety’ voice in the head. I know it well and it sucks. Good job telling it to fuck off.

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