I was so close to not doing anything and then bam I fucked up again. Literally just hit the 5 day mark as I relapsed. It is the longest I have made it but I don’t want to relapse anymore. I am tired of “almost making it”. There may have been some progress but it still hurts. I just gotta keep going stronger…I will not let this control my life. I get better at resisting every time I am sober. Mistakes happen but addiction will not be my pilot.
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Don’t give up!
There are a lot of threads here dealing with sex/porn addiction, check them out for help
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Hi Stephen,
Its good that you checked in. Thank you.
This is really hard. I know.
I’ve relapsed more than anyone I know, seriously. But each time, there is a learning experience. And I believe in taking these learning experiences and working smarter, not harder.
So I’m going to challenge you to investigate the details of your relapse more closely to uncover any such learning experiences.
I’m going to ask a really smart question.
I’m assuming that you acted out with both porn and MB, but correct me if I’m wrong.
Where did you find the porn?
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It is incredibly tough because I know how badly I want to stop but that search for dopamine high is so strong even if I don’t think about it for multiple days. I find the porn from any avenue really…4chan and pornhub are the main offenders though. But I also find risque photos on apps like instagram and facebook. The porn is what pushes me to the point of masturbation and that is something I have learned after so many relapses.
Okay, I’m assuming that you have access to those sites on your phone or PC or both.
If you could block them, would you?
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